𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐇𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐎𝐟 𝐀 𝐌𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐚𝐥 ♡ MinSung

Ch. 10

When Minho woke up from being knocked out, the first thing he felt was a throbbing pain in the back of his head, and then the sound of car tires on the road and he knew he was in Christophers car.

As soon as he opened his eyes, he was only given a few seconds of silence before Chan noticed and started to scold him.

"You are a fucking idiot Minho. An idiot. What about any of that could possibly have thought was a good idea? How do you expect anyone to trust you, when as soon as you get the chance you run off to some sketchy neighborhood with some school friends? You have no idea how fucking stupid that was."

He raised his voice when he said the word 'stupid' to emphasize his words. Minho only closed his eyes again, wanting nothing more than to fade away.

"One moment you're my little brother cuddling me while we watch a movie, and then 5 hours later, I find you torturing a dying cat in some alley way, with a psychopath, a dickhead, and a boy who clearly can't keep his food in his stomach!" He yelled slightly louder, gripping the weel harder.

"It's not like that—" Minho tried to say, but he was quickly cut off.

"It is though isn't it! What's this all even about? Are you trying to prove yourself to someone Minho? Do you think it's cool to steal the life of something that barely had life in the first fucking place? I love you Minho, but I'm really disappointed in you. You're not at all the same person I knew.

You're so two-faced Minho! If father found out about all of this stuff, running around behind his back, stealing drugs, money, you name it, he would lock you in a God damn cellar Minho! I fail to even begin to understand your thought process! None of this was a good idea – none of it! You need to pull your shit together Minho—

If I find out that you do this even one more time, I will personally hire a guard to follow you around all day, and make sure you don't even go near that school Minho! I know about all of those poor kids you've picked on into crying, I know about it! It's not you Minho, it's not, you!"

As soon as Chan stopped talking Minho took the opportunity. "I have to do this Chan! I have to! If you not with them, I'm under them. I'd rather kill myself than deal with the things those guys would do to me if I pushed them away or left the group." He hissed.

"Minho-"

"You saw what they did to that fucking cat Chan! You saw!" Minho breathed heavily, "I'm not safe anywhere, but as long as I play along, I'll be fine!"

Chan didn't respond. He knew there were other ways out of this, but this was no way to talk about it.

Minho really wasn't the type of person who liked to yell, and neither was Chan, so the elder decided it was probably best to talk about when they were both calmed down.

Besides, Minho had too much pride to actually listen anyway.

. . .

March 13th, 2020, 4:05pm

Dear diary,

I want to kill myself.

-Jisung