𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐇𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐎𝐟 𝐀 𝐌𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐚𝐥 ♡ MinSung

Ch. 20

Looking his friend in the face was hard, especially knowing that there was so much he was keeping from Felix.

How would Felix react if he found out about the deal with Minho? It made Jisung feel dirty in a way, like he wasn't an innocent person anymore. People had sex all the time though, so this was nothing he should feel guilty or ashamed of.. right?

"They're almost here!" Felix danced around his room reading a text message.

"You're way too happy." Jisung sighed, not wanting to have to meet these new people right now, especially not with all he had going on outside of his life with Felix.

"Awe, come on Jisung. This means you'll have a friend at your school and not just me!" Felix tried to cheer him up.

Jisung heaved a groan, whining like a toddler, "Thats the point Felix, I don't want people at my school to know me."

Felix flopped down on his bed beside Jisung, snuggling his head and arms around his waist. "This is an important step for you though! You have to move out of your comfort zone."

Just as Felix had said this, the doorbell echoed across the house and Jisung just knew that the other two boys had arrived. He once again asked himself how he had gotten roped into this whole thing. The teen hated meeting new people and always had.

Nearly immediatly after the bell sounded, Felix started to sprint for the door, as if this was the most exciting thing that had ever happened to him. However, it wasn't suprising to Jisung that Felix was excited to see other people – he always thought of himsleft as a rather boring person anyway, so why wouldn't his friends share a mutual agreement?

Jisung awkwardly trailed down the stairs after his friend, watching from far away behind the railing as two more boys apeared from behind the front door. One of them he recognised as Jeongin, the boy he'd met at school, so through the process of elimination, he assumed the other one was Seungmin.

What didn't help the conversation, was that both of them were relitively attractive, and it made Jisung not only nervouse, but slightly self conciouse. What if Felix leaves him because he's more ugly? No... if Felix was anything, it was not shallow. Felix was the most genuine and happy person Jisung had ever had the pleasure of knowing, and better yet, being friends with.

Jisung watched as the three of them hugged one another and shared greetings, being secretly jelouse of the way they did it so easily. He debated whether he could make a run for it out the back door, before any of them even realized the boy was watching. Perhaps he could sneak out the bedroom window? that was on the second floor though...

"Oh!" Felix swung around, catching Jisung off guard, "And theres Jisung. He's super awkward, but a really nice guy, so give him a chance." Felix joked, making the other boys cheeks fluch red, now having all the attention on him.

"Yeah!" Jeongin chirped up, "We met in school. Remember?"

Jisung started to shrink back into the shadows of the stair case, genuinly thinking of making a run for it, before Felix would catch him. He nodded slightly, looking sheepish, "Yeah.. I remember."

Felix smiled at the other boy, as if to say, 'Everything is going to be okay.'

Jisung knew he was right, but that didn't stop the absolute terror of having to meet new people take over. Jisung gave a smile now, but all three of the boys could clearly tell he was faking it and an anxouse face rose through the mask. He nodded again and took a bigger step up towards the rest of the group, knowing that it was a move of instant regret when he realized that seungmin was simply staring at him. This made Jisung start to worry.

What if he was staring because he though the younger was being odd or strange. Immedietly Jisung shuffled himself right back into his shell and his smile somewhat dropped from how it was just moments ago. At this point Jisung was actually eyeing the front door wondering if he could slip past the rest of the group and run off down the street never to be seen by the human eye again. Perhaps he could start a new life in China.

"Should we go up into my room now? I have some cool stuff I'd like to show you guys." Felix suggested trying to loosen the tense atmasphere hanging in a ploom above their heads.

Seungmin nodded and looked over at his friends, "Yeah sure." he smiled, "It better be cooler than last time though. That was.. disapointing to say the least." he joked.

"Hey that was all very interesting stuff!" Felix encouraged, "Jisung thinks so right?" he looked over at the boy as they met up and started walking up the stairwell.

"What stuff? You show me a lot..." Jisung tried to lighten his own mood by cracking a joke and though people laughed with him, it didn't seem to make him feel any better than before.

. . .

The four of them sat scattered around the room for quite a while. It took Jisung almost half an hour to gather the courage to add his own opinion to the discussion. Then after an hour, he finally started to slighly warm up to the other two boys.

As it turns out, Seungmin wasn't actually mean at all, and he seemed like a genuinly nice person. He made jokes and laughed with other people making sure to constantly check their reactions so he didn't hurt anyones feelings. After a while they started to talk more about his and Felix's school and the poeple and friends they had their.

If Jisung were to say he didn't feel slightly jelouse that Felix seemed to be really, really popular it would be a lie. The type of popular kid thats super nice and friends with litteraly everyone he's ever met. Jisung was the comlete opposite. No one seemed to notice that he even exsisted... accept Minho that is..

"Me and Seungmin were invited to a party with a few friends from school and some people who go to your guys' school. The guy holding it said that we could invite a few more friends if we wanted. You guys should totally come." Jeongin spoke up looking over at Felix, "You're probaby invited though, whether anyone told you or not."

Fekix laughed, "Yeah Hyunjin mentioned it to me. I'm pretty sure some of his out of school friends are going. You should come as well Jisung, we'll run it by the host – I think his name was Christopher or something. I've never actually met him"

Jisung glanced at him with a worried look covering his face, "I don't know.." he said, "I'm not sure they want me there, and plus, I never did well with big house parties anyway."

"Oh it's not big." Seungmin clarified, "There will be about 8 poeple there including us and you."

"Ah.." Jisung whispered, "I'd have to think about it. Just make sure that the other people don't mind me being there.."

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