Shaurya walks back towards Anokhi's room who is sleeping. He holds her hand and places his head on her shoulder with silent tears rushing from his eyes. Anokhi suddenly wakes up. She looks at the back of Shaurya's head but knows he had been crying from the wetness she felt on her shoulder.
Anokhi-Shaurya! Ro mat! Sab theekh ho jayega shayd. I am....
Shaurya-Dont you dare say the word. It had to happen this way. But why jaan.
Anokhi-I wish I knew.
That's when the doctor appears.
Doctor-How are you feeling Anokhi?
Anokhi-Good doctor but why did this happen? I mean future mein kuch hoga toh nhi naa. I mean I can conceive later right?
Doctor-Yes. We ran some tests kuch galat nhi tha.
Anokhi-Then why? Why did it happen to me?
Shaurya looks at her a bit hurt. Though he doesn't say anything.
Doctor-Sometimes we don't why it happens. There is no specific cause. You have to slowly accept that you may never find the answer to questions like this. But haan don't try to conceive now. Give your body time to heal.
Anokhi-But I want my baby! I want it back!
Shaurya-Hey! Doctor ki baat samjho. I don't want ki you risk yourself for the baby.
Anokhi-Shaurya tum samjh nhi rhe ho. I felt it. I could feel it in me and now it is not there. There is this huge void in my stomach and a bigger void in my life. I don't know what to fill it with. It is eating me up.
Shaurya-Hhhhmmmm.
Anokhi-Kuch bolo naa Shaurya.
Shaurya-Anokhi I don't know but just that we will try later.
Anokhi-Is that all you have to say?
Shaurya-Yes. Kya hi kahoon. Jo ho gya usko nhi badal sakte hai.
Anokhi-Haan but I miss it.
Shaurya-Anokhi yeh sab mat socho rest karo.
Anokhi-Rest kaise karoon.
Shaurya-Jaise karte hai. Aankhen band karke. Waise bhi mujhe kaam hai college mein baad mein aata hoon.
Anokhi feels hurt because Shaurya seems different after her waking up. And now he was leaving her and going. Shaurya on the other hand didn't feel like talking about the baby and Anokhi would not stop. Both of them had different ways of dealing with things. Shaurya felt drained with having to put up a front of strength.
Anokhi lies down and closes her eyes.
Afterwards, Anokhi gets discharge and they take her home. As soon as she gets home she opens her laptop and starts working.
Shaurya-Anokhi rest karo.
Anokhi-Shaurya nhi I lost a lot of time for this. So baby nhi toh Siac hi sahi.
Shaurya-Anokhi bohot hua. First thing you lost time because of this?
Anokhi-No how could you think like that?
Shaurya-Anokhi we tried but it didn't work out doesn't mean all of that emotional investment was useless.
Anokhi-I never said that. I am still invested. I just want to distract myself.
Shaurya-You want to distract yourself? And there is no other way? Anokhi you know mujhpe kya beeti hai sara din tumhare liye pareshan tha. You bleeding is the most horrifying thing I ever saw. I can't bear to think of it. Tumne apne bache ko khoya hai and I lost it too but I was so scared for you as well.
Anokhi-Shaurya I am fine.
Shaurya-You are not. And mujhe lagta hai I was putting up a strong front but you? You are denying your pain to me. Why would you do that?
Anokhi-Thats what you did in the hospital. I thought you don't like talking about it.
Shaurya-Yes, but I like to hear you talk about it. I miss that.
Anokhi-So I am supposed to talk one way!
Shaurya-Maybe!
Anokhi-You grieve your way and I will grieve mine.
Shaurya-So this grief is your and mine. Not ours?
Anokhi-You started this.
Shaurya-I started what? Maine tumhari health ki fikar karke itna kya galat kar diya?
Anokhi-Maine khud ko kaam mein invest karke itna kya galat kar diya?
Shaurya-I can't Anokhi. I can't fight you. I don't want to. If you need me mein study mein hoon.
Shaurya was sitting in the study when Tej walks in.
Tej-Shaurya Anokhi ke paas rho. She needs you. Kaam hota rahega.
Shaurya-Bade papa she doesn't want me anymore. Usko khud ko sambhal naa aata hai.
Tej-Aisa bola usne?
Shaurya-Shayd.
Tej-But woh dil se nhi manti. Jaise tu nhi manta. Yahan baitha hai but tujhe uski zaroorat mehsoos ho rhi hai.
Shaurya-Bade papa. We need some space.
Tej-Hhhmmm. But not now. Har rishta alag hota hai. So shayd mein galat hoon but tum log ek doosre ke best frienda bhi ho. Husband-Wife hone se pehle. And abhi tum dono ko ek best friend ki zaroorat hai. Ek doosre ka best friend banene ki koshish karo. Ek doosre se share karo jo feel karte ho bina soche ki usko yeh sunkar kaisa lagega. And ek doosre ko samjhao bina soche ki yeh shabd kya samne wali ko console kar payenge yaa nhi. Bas koshish karni hai putar. Remember, ki tum dono ne ek doosre ko kyu chuna? Ek doosre ki woh qualities jisse tumhe pyar hua tha. Sab asaan ho jayega.
Meanwhile Devi goes to meet Anokhi.
Devi-Anokhi beta.
Anokhi-Badi maa. Aap. Baithiye.
Devi-Kaisa feel kar rhi ho?
Anokhi-Theekh.
Devi-Jhoot. Maa jaisi manti ho atleast agar maa nhi manti toh?
Anokhi-Kaisi baatein kar rhe ho aap.
Devi-Anokhi dekho I know tum bohot pain mein ho.
Anokhi-Maa mein kya hi kahun. Yeh pain...
Devi-Mein smajhti hoon Anokhi. Yeh phase maine bohot kareeb se dekha hai. But ek baat bolti hoon aise khudko akela karne se asaan nhi hoga.
Anokhi-Mein nhi badi maa. Shaurya woh baat hi nhi karna chahte. Aur fir mein nhi karti baat toh bhi bura lagta hai usse.
Devi-Dekho Anokhi woh bohot darr gya tha aaj. Uske liye tum sabse important ho. Woh tumhe protect karne ki koshish kar rha hai.
Anokhi-Maa but I have to face the truth. So does he.
Devi-Haan Anokhi but jaise tumhare liye mushkil hai uske liye bhi hai. Iska matlab yeh nhi ki tumhe aise door rehna chahiye. Haan tum apne bache se bohot pyar karte ho but that was not why you are married. Yeh advice tum logon ke liye agle kuch dino ke liye useful rahega. You know dard hume doosro, jinse hum sabse zyada pyar karte hai unhe door karta hai. Yaa toh hum unhe hurt karna chahte isliye kehte nhi, yaa phir shabd nhi hote. Aur phir hum kuch kehte nhi. But yeh doori badh jati hai aur pata chalta hai tab jab sab khatam ho jata hai. Mein dara nhi rhi bas yeh keh rhi hoon ki tum dono ek doosre ke liye bohot important ho. Yeh yaad rakhna.
Anokhi-Badi maa thanks.
Devi-Khayal rakho beta apna aur ek doosre ka. Hum sirf support kar sakte hai but yeh journey tumhari hai.
Anokhi-Yes. Aap mujhe please Shaurya ke paas leke jaoge?
Meanwhile Shaurya walks inside.
Devi-Mein chalti hoon.
They stare at each other for a few minutes and get teary eyed.
So I hope you liked this update. Just hang on with the story. There will be something very nice ahead. I hope you guys enjoyed..... Please do comment....... I know this is not what saakk fanfiction is like but bear with it. End will be nice.
