Shaurya- Can we take another shot at this?
Anokhi- Shaurya! You want a baby!
Shaurya- Hmmm.
Anokhi- Now that we aborted one a few months back you want a baby!
Shaurya- Anokhi. Life is short to hold grudges.
Anokhi- True. Against my husband when we both want the exact same thing. But do we both want it? It's not the same as having another Mimi Shaurya. Having a child is.... Is like from the beginning. From the day you know nothing about the child. We make the child everyday after making it real. We pour what we have into it. The best. Try to keep the bad from her or him. And then everyday live with the knowledge that you let go. It will be uprooted. It will find a new pot to be in Shaurya. It's not going to be ours always. But what it becomes is ours. Our flaws, our love, our core or a response to out core. But just like us but a mirror to us. It's not pleasant. There is that chord of right and wrong between us as partners but that chord is not formed in a child. It's not the same. It's mistakes.... It's our mistakes. It's not knowing. Even if I have Mimi this will be different. I mean every pregnancy is different. Every birth is different. Every baby needs different things.... The same stuff won't work. I can't show you the way. I don't know it.
Shaurya- We will stumble along but we will find it. Our way. Our thing with them. We will find. We will seek. Anokhi I know I will have to step up. I will step up. I won't make it difficult. I will try to keep you comfortable. I will be your help. You won't feel the responsibility. I will be there all along. Till the last day. On the face of earth. I love you.Can we try?
Anokhi- Shaurya it's always been a by product for us. Never seeked it actively!
Shaurya- Not we won't seek it. Let's just hope it happens to us.
But over the next few months Anokhi had started keeping a track of her days of ovulation so that she could get pregnant. During one such time, Shaurya who was unaware of the window.
Shaurya- Mood nhi hai. Aaj thak gya hoon.
Anokhi- Par window!
Shaurya- Anokhi let's not take that pressure as we decided. Honestly I can make out you are not in mood for it as well. Anokhi that's exactly what you ran away from. Don't put yourself there again where you put something above you even if it is the want for a baby. Come let's cuddle and sleep. And forget the window! You don't have to keep a check. If it happens. It happens. Otherwise we atleast have Mimi.
Anokhi- Hmm. Sahi keh rhe ho.
They go to the bed.
After 6 months or so Anokhi was still not able to conceive and she decided they should consult a gynac. Somewhere deep down there was this feeling that their prior abortions might have resulted in this.
Gynac- No Anokhi this was nothing to do with that at all. They didn't damage your embroyo during the abortion and you could have sued if that was the reason. But everything is fine sometimes it happens. In some months you don't ovulate. It is ok. Give it some more days. If not we can do IVF.
Anokhi- IVF! I mean....
Shaurya- Anokhi you don't have to go through that. Woh ek bohot difficult process hai for you. I mean pehle extraction of egg fir usko wapas rakhna after it has fertilized. No way! We will adopt but not this. I can't let this happen to you. Your life has been so hard Anu. I mean I wanted a better pregnancy for you than the last time, not this!
Anokhi- Hmm mujhe bhi nhi karna IVF.
Shaurya- Haan. Tum stress mat lo ok. I love you jaan. Mimi loves you....
Anokhi- Hmmm. I love you too Shaurya.
Shaurya- Chalo Anu ghar chale?
Anokhi- Hmmm.
Anokhi was very upset and stressed.
Shaurya- Anu aise stress lene se thodi hoga. Anu please aise stress mat karo. Baitho tum mein tumhari favorite chai lata hoon.
Anokhi- Shaurya nhi tum paas baitho. Achaa nhi lag rha.
Shaurya- Arre Anu! Mein hoon naa. Yhi pe. Achaa maa ko bol deta hoon woh better chai....
Aastha- Yeh dekho chai lai hoon.
Anokhi- Maa aapko kaise pata?
Aastha- Maa ko bache ke baare mein sab pata hai. Aur yeh rha tumhara favorite ginger cookies.
Anokhi- Thanks maa.
They have chai and cookies together and Shaurya tries to cheer her up with some funny stories and gup shup.
How was it? Do comment! Very busy as of now with submissions. So maybe update was not good. Sorry! Also sorry muggu if you didn't like.
