Yours Truly

43: There really ain't much that I could say

It was getting suffocating. He tried loosening the tie. Nope, it definitely wasn't the tie. It was his inner restrains.
Seokjin knows. He knows it all. Ji-yoon told him every single bit. Ji-yoon asked for help. Jisoo had turned into a murderer.
And Seokjin knew. He knew it all. But decided to lie, in order to safe her dear cousin. Kim Jisoo wouldn't be able to handle the cell. It would kill her. And that would kill his friend, almost brother to be precise, Kim Namjoon. So, he lied.
But Seokjin never knew. He never knew that a lie would be this suffpcating. It's killing him. Knowing, Jisoo has done a terrible crime and he shouldn't have hid her. Whatever it maybe, she murdered her mother.

"Si?"
Heavy shoulders drooping. Doe eyes missing their usual sparkle. This wasn't the Jungkook Sierra knew.
"Ggukie, you are not alright."
Sierra's fingers wrapped around his wrist, tugging him towards the stairs, to her home. He needed some warmth. He looked lifeless.
He chuckled bitterly. Shaking his head. Sierra was truly his twin. As if a sister. A sister who knows him better than the love of his life.
He needs something soothing. Something to spark life in him. Something sweet. Sierra made sure he was comfortable on the small, lofty, mattress. She brought one banana milk and one chocolate milk for them both. Scooting beside him, handing him his favourite yellow bottled drink. She started sipping hers. Her voice low and calm, as if chanting a hymn,
"It's okay Kookie. It's okay if you wanna take time. It's okay if you wanna rant. If you just wanna take a rest. If you just want a hug. Or just wanna close your eyes. I'm here. I'll always be here, bunny."
Jungkook wrapped an arm around Sierra, cuddling her. He couldn't help but break into tears. As if his heart was splitting. He wanted to hide. He wanted to confide. And he knew, he is safe with Sierra. Out of all the people in this world, he is safe with his Hyungs and Sierra.
Sierra, hugged him back, running her fingers softly through his cloudy locks. Closing her eyes shut. As if trying to transfer some form of comfort to her twin.
"Si, why do I feel Lisa doesn't actually love me? She is just sticking with me because she feels hollow otherwise? She's been shutting me down when she wants and only let's me in at her will. She only tells me what she wants me to hear, and then leaves me in the dark. She leaves me hanging. Maybe it's all inside my head. Maybe it's nothing. Maybe I'm thinking too much. But... But... I don't think it's love."
The last bit felt the hardest to spit out. Why couldn't it be love? Why doesn't she adore him like he does? Why can't she show her love? Through words and gifts and hugs and small things. Not even a single "I love you". As if she's busy all the time. As if she doesn't care. As if she's just doing what she's supposed to. A work more than a passionate feeling.
"Jungkook-ah, you want to just get it off your chest or do you wanna figure out a solution? We are open to both."
Sierra smacked his bicep. Jungkook sniffled, jumping away from Sierra. After all, Taehyung was a jealous lad. His words getting tied,
"Hyung-i-it's... It's not what it looks like."
"Kim Taehyung-ssi. You scared the poor boy! Let him rant."
Taehyung pulled her soft cheeks, giggling. Her hands on her waist. He pecked her cheeks,
"Well Mademoiselle, he is not just your bestie and twin, he's my dongsaeng too."
Taehyung sat next to him and swung his arm around him. His voice soft, almost cooing,
"Jungkook-ah, if your assumption about Lisa is correct, then it's going to hurt. It's going to hurt really bad. But, holding on to it would hurt most. Also, if your assumption isn't quite there, yet you distance yourself away from Lisa. It would literally be your worst mistake. It would leave you both at your lowest."
"Then what the fuck am I supposed to do, Hyung!"
Jungkook burried his face in his palms. Frustration and tears overflowing through him. Taehyung smiled. A sad echo behind that smile. He slowly patted his dongsaeng's back,
"Talk with her Jungkook-ah. Tell her all you've been feeling. Hear her side of the story. Settle it out. It's only you who can help yourself. No one but you."
Taehyung looked at Sierra, who was feeling the same for Jungkook. The same shadow in her eyes. They didn't know, both Lisa and Jungkook would get caught up in a mess. They thought these two were in love. True love.
"Ggukie, want me to cook you something? Or maybe order something? Anything you like. I'll cook or order it for you."
Sierra slowly finger combed Jungkook's fluffy hair. Her voice soft, as if of a mother's. He sniffed, his rose red as a tomato. He whispered,
"Maybe some pizza and chicken?"
Sierra scrunched her nose, as a bright smile followed. She messed Jungkook's hair up, standing on her feet,
"Sure. Yah! Oppa, place the order on my name."
Taehyung chuckled, cocking an eyebrow, speaking in his heavy satoori,
"What's the magic word?"
Sierra rolled her eyes. Grunting a bit. Hands on her waist as usual,
"Please?"
"That's more like it, Jagiya!"
Both Jungkook and Sierra barfed. Jungkook elbowed his Hyung,
"Too cheesy! Argh! Hyung, you make my feet crawl. Is he normally this cheesy, Si?"
"More than this Kookie."
Jungkook smirked at his Hyung. Speaking through his teeth, so it doesn't ruin his smoulder,
"Tsk. Babo."
Sierra was tying her hair up in a bun. She scoffed midway, as her eyes fall on Taehyung,
"Yeah... My babo."
Her eyes softening up. Her lips going slightly up. The man in front of her, would forever stay her. Whatever it maybe.
"You both are so cheesy! Argh!"
Jungkook barfed, but deep inside he wanted a love like them. A one that has cracks in it, but wouldn't break. A one that brings comfort. A one that Sierra and Taehyung have and will cherish forever.