Yours Truly

91: Then is it possible for you to come back to me?

Taehyung was good. He made Sierra jealous. How can he be that good with origami? She slightly nudged him, whining,
"Yah! You are bruising my pride, Kim Taehyung!"
He chucklex, ruffling her hair, muttering,
"Cute."
She pouted leaning on him. He smiled at the warmth she brought into his life. He kept on folding the brown sheet of paper. A yellow chick, a blue koala and a pink rabbit stringed together as spectators. Recently he was sinking deeper, but it felt great. The depth was warm and cozy. She was with him every moment. He was being a good lover to her. His anxiety was slowly coming under his control. She was almost lying on his back. She fiddled with her fingers, humming,
"Oppa?"
"Yeah, Juliette?"
"I... I wanna rejoin my classes, Oppa."
His eyes rose from the sheet of folded paper. He calmly smiled, facing her. He gently patted her,
"You are the universe's best creation, my love. You are brave, you are strong, you are unique. Only do what your heart tells you to my Juliette. Only do things for your own contentment."
She smiled slightly, hesitation in her voice,
"I know I shouldn't say this and that I knew how to live even before you came in the picture and you know that, I mean, I was doing A-Okay and I am a strong, independant woman and...I mean... Still... You'll be there for me right?"
Taehyung pecked Sierra's forehead. Taking her hands in his. His eyes were warm and he felt a calmth insude himself,
"I'll hold your hand till the last. I'll never let go. I'll always follow you to the ends of the world. I'll bet and bet and bet to be with you. I love you, my Juliette."

Bambam toyed with his cellphone. Neither could he hear his Lalisa cry, nor could he see Jungkook fading away. He hated how their feelings worked. Jungkook loves Lisa, perhaps. But now that Lisa has hurt him to the point of numbness, his hatred occupies a greater mass. For Lisa. She is naive and innocent and chooses whatever attracts her. She doesn't think much as thinking never got her anywhere. She doesn't care aboit anything but the heart. She only listens to it. But her heart is so soft that the blowing wind can change it's course. She means no harm. She only seeks for happiness. Lisa and Jungkook go together. More than soulmates. He fills the spot she leaves behind and vice versa. They complete each other almost. Then why was it that all they did was hurt each other?
Lisa's side of the story sounded absurd. Jungkook's seemed childish. It would only take a small sacrifice, to mend things. But who shall do it? Would Jungkook let go of his ego and give Lisa another chance? But he is hesitant just as he should be. He doesn't wanna get hurt again. Or should Lisa let go, because everything she did can't be rewinded again?
Bambam smiled, texting Jungkook, just what Lisa asked her to.

Yah Jungkook
Wassup man?

Been doing great bro.
How's everyone?

He smiled at himself. How pitiful was he that he needed someone to ask of her yet couldn't say her name? His heart wrenched. He shouldn't. She has someone. She is in love. And he doesn't want to come in between. He still woke up with random wounds at random places of his body. He cried out of the blue when the clock struck twelve. He sometimes missed and terribly craved the taste of Thai dishes he never had. Somedays, he felt like watching Goblin and somedays he just felt like boxing. He thought this too would wash away. Sooner or later. But the fact that it was going through for months, didn't assure him one bit. It didn't assure him that nothing would wear out because he belongs with her. You are her destiny. She is your fate. Sometimes, human don't know their own heart. The heavens cry and send them hints. But they are blinded, almost. They can see nothing but what's whispered to them.

Everyone is A-Okay.
When do you intend to come back,bro?

I don't know
Lol
I guess when someone dies again?

Bro...

What?
It is what it is.
Have you seen us BamBam?
We only care for eachother these days so that we don't die.
Everyone checks on the other, just to be sure that the other one is alive.

That's not the case.

You don't know that BamBam.

Fine
Who do you want to see in the casket?
Sierra or Taehyung Hyung or Yoongi Hyung or Jennie Noona?
Or Lisa?

Bambam believed it was ridiculous. The way they all talked about the deaths. As if it was a curse that they bore. Rosé's death was a suicide. Jimin took his own life. Jisoo killed herself because Namjoon went to jail. Namjoon killed himself because of Jisoo. Heartwrenching, yes. But why do all of them act as if something inevitable pushed them. He rolled his eyes. He was friends with Lisa, Jungkook, Sierra and Rosé the longest. And after Rosé's demise, he somehow witnessed the three lose their minds almost.
Jungkook gulped, trying to focus his shaking eyes on the screen. He was running away from the very question every moment of his day. He flakily typed,

Mine.

"Lalice, I'm telling you. You should focus on yourself at the moment."
Bambam was the cupid all along for both Lisa and Jungkook. They were his bestest friends. But now, all he wanted was for them to be happy. All they brought to each other were pain. Lisa scoffed from the other side of the phone,
"I wish I could Bam. I just wish I could."
"I hate to break it Lis, but do you actually love him? Or do you just want him."
"All of the above."
"Lisa, please. Drop this. Love yourself first. You have gone through a lot recently, it's okay to be distressed. Focus on yourself..."
Lisa cut him off,
"Bam. I can't focus on myself. That would take away my focus from Jungkook. If love myself, I won't get love him selflessly. I know it's wrong, but it's easier. There's a blunt pain inside, but if I switch from this, I know the pain would be worse. He's my answer to everything. He's all I need at the moment. He's my chaos and confusion and serenity. All at once. I know, you amy think of me as a prude or whatever, but trust me, I love him at the moment and I have never ever been more sure about anything."