My enemy since childhood

Chapter 14

How weak can a person be? i thought, looking around nervously. I had made up my mind, i would not meet Thomas, but still my curiosity steered me away towards the football field. Whatever happens, i had myself to blame. It was so stupid.

"Stupid, stupid, stupid" i muttered to myself and took a deep breath as i looked away at the empty stands. He might not even come. I had actually said that i wouldn't meet him.

I had said goodbye to Brooke without telling her what i was going to do, she would never understand. It wasn't about me having feelings for Thomas, it was about something else. What? no idea, but i wouldn't date him because i had any feelings for him. It was then one that was certain. It was pure curiosity that made me go. Which i regretted more and more with each step i took.

"You came."

The voice behind me made my body react in the most unexpected way. My whole body tingled so that i had to take a deep breath to calm my nerves before i dared to turn around.

"I have to say i'm a little surprised" Thomas said and took a step towards me as i met his gaze.

"Then there are two of us, i didn't mean to come."

"But you did."

"Yeah" i said and easily almost out of breath.

"Why did you change your mind?" he asked, leaning against the edge of the bleachers.

"Curiosity, i couldn't think of one thing you'd like to talk to me about."

"Not?"

"No, so what did you want to talk about?"

I was met with a light laugh when he looked around until his eyes landed on me again. I raised my eyebrows questioningly and crossed my arms over my chest.

"Come on, what do you want?"

"Are you in a hurry or?" he asked, straightening up and i felt the irritation start to rise in my body. This was ridiculous.

"As i thought, someone you have nothing to talk about" i said dryly and started to leave.

"Someone like me? What do you really think of me?"

"It's pretty obvious, isn't it? You think with your dick and you apparently talk with your dick too."

"You seem to be very interested in my dick?"

"Ha!" i snorted and walked past him but he quickly grabbed my arm.

"I have been told i have a small dick. Sound familiar? I would love to know which porn actress you have slept with."

I heard myself gasp.

"Is that what you wanted to talk about? Oh my god, grow up" i hissed and tried to yank my arm to no avail.

"It wasn't, but i actually think it was very amusing to hear. Also, from someone they haven't seen my dick."

"Oh my god! I'm not going to have this discussion with you" i said curtly, glaring at him angrily.

"Okay sure, but relax now, we are going to sit down."

"We have nothing to talk about, i don't know why i thought that."

"Y/n, let's go sit down" he said seriously and hugged my arm. Not hard. But with a will so strong that it almost burned through his clothes. Which was a strange feeling, i thought, rolling my eyes.

"Sure" i muttered and followed him once he had released his grip on me.

We went up the disguised steps in silence. I felt my heart beat faster with each step i took. Was i really out of shape?

I was still standing on the last step when he sat down a bit on the bench.

"Sit down" he said and lightly patted the spot next to him.

"This is ridiculous, what do you want from me?" i asked but remained in my seat.

"Sit down and i will tell you."

I couldn't help but laugh and shake my head as i climbed the last step and sat down next to him.

"So, now i'm sitting" i said, still with a laugh.

"You are cute when you laugh" he said and smiled which immediately made me stop.

"Are you serious?"

"Why wouldn't i be? Come on, you know you are good looking, but you are extra cute when you laugh."

"Okay" i mumbled and felt myself blush.

"Are you embarrassed?" he asked along with a smile that hardly made my blush any better.

"Cute" he continued and laughed.

We sat in silence and i didn't know where to look. My cheeks were still hot, which was so silly but i couldn't help it. I lightly fiddled with the sleeve of my shirt, waiting for him to say something. He was the one who wanted to talk.... then he may take the first step, i had nothing to say to him then anyway.

I felt him move a little closer to me and my pulse immediately increased. Maybe i wasn't in such bad shape after all? i thought, somewhat surprised by the reaction so i swallowed nervously in an attempt to calm the butterflies fluttering in my stomach.

"How's the head?" he asked so i turned my gaze to him and laughed.

"Was that you wanted? Check how my head was?"

"In part, i was going to apologize. You must think i threw that ball on purpose so that you-"

"And it wasn't?" i interrupted skeptically.

"A little maybe" he said amused and poked me lightly in the side.

"You are even shittier than i expected" i said but couldn't hold back the laughter that bubbled up again.

"You weren't meant to get it right in the head, i promise" he muttered, placing one hand on my thigh and drawing small circles with one finger.

"I guess, i can forgive you" i whispered in a voice that was barely audible.

When i swallowed and looked up again he was so close. I gasped for air as he lowered his gaze to my lips before slowly making his way up to my eyes.

He pulled me closer to him and moved his hand slowly up and down my thigh which made my whole insides pound uncontrollably, made my pulse race so that my heart was about to jump out of my chest.

"Do you want me?" he whispered so close to my lips that the slightest gust of wind would have caused us to collide.

"Yes" i whispered without thinking.

When he leaned towards me, i closed my eyes.

"Too bad that we will never fuck each other" he whispered in my ear and stood up with a grin and took a step past me.

I felt as i would die of humiliation. It was a game, everything had been just a game and i had stepped right into the trap. Bloody hell!

"Fuck you Thomas!" i called after him but he just raised his hand in a wave.