My enemy since childhood

Chapter 23

What the hell was i saying? i didn't have feelings for him! i just....i was just tired, nothing else. I blinked away the threatening tears, oh my god, toughen up! i thought and took a deep but shaky breath. It was so ridiculous to think that whatever had happened last saturday would have changed anything between us. Changed him.

"Hey" i heard Brooke say behind me before hooking her arm with mine.

When i met her gaze, i couldn't stop the tear that found its way down my cheek. In an attempt to laugh it off she hugged me and everything snapped.

"What happened?" she whispered, stroking my hair comfortingly.

"Nothing. I'm just tired" i muttered sobbing as she released her grip on me.

"You can't lie to me" she continued softly and well, who was i trying to fool? she knew me inside out so i could never lie to her.

I took a deep breath and nodded away at the total disaster that had triggered my tears.

Brooke followed my nod and sighed as she shook her head at the sight of Thomas with that slut.

"It's not that i want him, i just...i don't know. I don't know why i'm crying."

"He's not worth it, you know that, he's not worth you" she whispered, wiping away a tear.

"Like i said, i'm just tired. I didn't get any sleep last night."

"Whatever, he's not worth your tears, for whatever reason."

"I know" i muttered and glanced away at Thomas again who had let the slut go and instead been joined by some of his gang.

"Come on, let's ignore them and go buy some coffee before we start" Brooke said and started to walk away with me.

Of course there was another way to the cafeteria other than passing the idiots if we didn't want to walk around the whole school, which we didn't have time for.

I could feel myself filling my lungs with air as we got closer and i automatically hugged Brooke's arm tighter.

"Take it easy and do what you always do, pretend you don't see them" she whispered and i felt myself exhale.

Was she absolutely right, oh my god, it was the same people i had met almost every day for over a year, some longer. They mean nothing to me and i was better off letting myself be influenced by them.

I raised my chin and looked straight ahead, the guys were invisible to me. Almost...

"Y/n, why the rush?" Jake asked with a grin, standing directly in front of me.

"What do you want?" i asked out loud, raising my eyebrows as he chuckled.

"You know that, hey sorry for what i said last Saturday, i didn't mean it" he said and pushed me to the side, away from Brooke.

"What the hell are you doing?" i snarled, glaring at him.

"Come on, i thought maybe we could hang out for real, just you and me."

I wanted to burst out laughing but everything stuck to my tongue. I glanced over his shoulder and met Thomas dark gaze and clenched jaws.

"Sure" i said smiling at Jake.

"Fuck yeah" he said and winked flirtatiously with a big smile on his face.

"I have to go, see ya" i said as silly girly as i could and put one hand up to his chest, playing with my fingers lightly before smiling and walking back to Brooke.

It took all my strength not to look up and meet Thomas gaze, which i could feel burning into me so intensely that the hair on my arms stood up.

Quickly i hooked Brooke's arm and started walking away. I just wanted to get away from everything and everyone as fast as possible before i fell like a house of cards.

When we entered the cafeteria, which was almost completely empty, i exhaled. Oh my God, i thought, closing my eyes for a brief second.

"So, you are going on a date with the second biggest idiot in school, close behind thomas i mean. What were you thinking agreeing to that?"

"I didn't think, that's the problem."

"But you are going to meet him to get revenge on Thomas?"

"Kind of. Or i don't know. I don't know why i agreed to it."

"I think you probably know that, no one could have missed Thomas anger when you answered yes. I have probably never seen him so bitterly angry before."

"He's got himself to blame, it's his fault that i'm now going to see Jake, alone. Ugh, what have i gotten myself into?" i muttered in frustration.

"You know you are going to sleep with Jake" she said teasingly and laughed.

"What? No! I won't! I will only see him once. We will have to be out or something, i don't know."

"He probably has other plans" she continued with a grin and accepted her coffee.

"Sometimes i really want to end my acquaintance with you, you are so fucking disturbed!"

"Like children play best, isn't that what they say?"

"Ha-ha, come on, or we will be late" i muttered and started walking.

I hurried into the hall and sat down in my usual place. Brooke was stuck right outside the door so i put the mug with the coffee on the bench and started picking up the books we were going to have during the lesson.

Without having to look up, i felt when Thomas, and Jake, entered the hall. The air became so oppressively heavy that it was difficult to get air. It didn't make it any easier when Thomas walked past me and sat on the bench behind me, something he had never done before.

I swallowed nervously and glanced at the door, couldn't Brooke be here soon? i thought, feeling the hairs on the back of my neck stand up.

"I hope you have a good time on your little date, just remember to use double condoms" Thomas whispered so close to me that i gasped.

"Why do you care?" i snarled back and was met with muffled laughter.

"Believe me, i don't."

Just as i was about to turn around and slap him brooke came and sat next to me.

"Aren't you sitting in the wrong place?" she asked Thomas curtly, giving him that bitchy expression that only she could.

"Apparently" Thomas said standing up.

I kept my eyes fixed on the coffee cup as he passed and i couldn't have been more grateful when the teacher came in and started the lesson.

The trouble was, however, that it was only Monday. Unable to stop myself, i glanced over at Thomas, who was restlessly biting a pen and keeping his gaze fixed on me. It was going to be a long week.