My enemy since childhood

Chapter 51

I got down after a few embarrassing moments of riding on my ass and i made it back up to the hotel without running into anyone from our gang.

Once i got to the room i threw myself straight across the bed and stared up at the ceiling, grateful to be completely alone for a while.

When the first tears started to run down my cheeks, i closed my eyes and allowed myself to be sad. This trip had not started the way i had hoped and it was only my own fault.

I sobbed and wiped my cheeks before sitting on the edge of the bed. Somehow i have to set everything right.

Should i find Thomas and explain to him that i don't want him to be with Kylie but with me. Would i dare to say that i have feelings for him? because honestly that's exactly what i had, i liked Thomas but i wasn't in love with him.

I snorted to myself, that was probably the biggest lie of them all. I was obviously in love with Thomas. Then he should know that right? that those were the reasons why we could not continue as before.

It was pretty clear, to me at least, that we couldn't sleep with each other if i was in love with him but that he didn't feel anything for me. Which he didn't, he had done that on the bus. What he felt for me was sexual and nothing else.

I picked up the phone, they would probably be on the hill for a while longer. I would take that bath i had longed for, change my clothes and fix myself up a bit, then i would find Thomas and tell him everything.

Before my courage failed me i hurried to the bathroom. It really was pretty, i thought as i waited for the water to fill the tub.

With a deep contented sigh i sank into the warm water. It was exactly what i needed to gather energy for what i had to do, i had no other choice. Thomas himself had said that all games between us were over and i had to believe that, whatever Dylan had said before about how Thomas was. So, if we were running with open cards, i have to tell him how i feel.

What happened after i told him, i will take it, but then i would have done everything i could. If he chose to be with Kylie just because he wanted an easy fuck then that was his choice, even if it would break me.

That i hadn't realized it before, that i was in love with Thomas. It was something i never thought would be possible. I hated him, at least who i thought he was. Maybe he was the person i hated after what happened between us, i couldn't lie to myself anymore. I didn't hate him, not anymore.

"I'm in love with Thomas" i said out loud to myself and felt my stomach flutter.

I ran my fingertips along the surface of the water and smiled. It was nice to say it out loud and now that i said it out loud it should be easier to tell him. He would probably laugh at me, the way he had laughed when i said Kylie was in love with him, but then i would have been completely honest with him. For the first time ever.

When i got out of the bath and dried myself, i hurried to look around in my bag. Both Brooke and i had packed far too many clothes so i had better find something to wear that didn't scream wilderness and mountains.

I put on my black jeans and a light gray hoodie, then it wouldn't feel too dressed up, after all we were in the mountains and i wasn't going to follow in Kylie's footsteps.

I took the key card and jacket. With a big smile on my face i slammed the door shut and headed for the elevator. It wasn't sure that the guys were back or that i would even find their cabin but it would be alright.