My enemy since childhood

Chapter 102

I sat down on the couch with a sigh and put the phone on the living room table. There were a million mixed emotions swirling around in my body. I leaned my head back against the backrest and took a deep breath as i stared up at the ceiling.

It had only been a few hours since i left Thomas's house, only a few hours without us talking and it was already creeping into my body. We hadn't talked about the evening and i didn't want to ban him from going to Kylie's party. I hated girls who ruled their boyfriends lives, it made me sick.

I glanced at the phone which was still completely black. Not a sound. The date with Thomas had been fantastic. After we ate we had watched a movie and just cuddled until we fell asleep, nothing really remarkable but it was one of the best nights of my life.

Was it strange that i felt anxious before the evening? Maybe. Sure, Thomas hadn't said he loved me but i felt it, he loved me just like i loved him. I had never been through anything like it, all these feelings i had for him, it was hard to describe. Maybe he felt the same way about me? i really hoped so.

I sat straight on the couch and stared at my phone, if i stared at it long enough i might get a text message from Thomas. Or not. But it was hard just sitting around waiting for Brooke to show up. Sure, she would probably be here any second but i needed someone to talk to, someone who could make me forget all thoughts of that stupid party.

What made me feel a little relieved was that Thomas had promised to sleep over here. I loved mine and Brooke's girl's nights but i almost wanted it to end just so Thomas would come. Which was absolutely insane and i hated that feeling. I was going to have a girls night with my best friend and my boyfriend was going to a party. What could go wrong?

Frustrated, i got up and paced back and forth in front of the couch. I didn't need to be jealous or worried, but it didn't feel good at all. I trusted Thomas, i did but there was an unwelcome need to control and unwelcome thoughts within me of everything that could go wrong tonight.

"Breathe" i said out loud to myself.

It was ridiculous and completely unnecessary but my brain was racing and i hated it. I really hated feeling this way.

When the bell finally rang, i ran out to the hall. Finally! i felt a calm wash over me when i met Brooke's big smile.

"Did you miss me that much?" Brooke asked with a laugh, taking a step past me.

"What do you mean?"

"You are panting, did you run to the door" she continued and hung up her jacket.

"Yeah sure, i'm going crazy and you need to distract me."

"Crazy? Aren't you always crazy?" she said with a laugh and walked into the living room.

I stand there for a second, slightly amused by her comment because she wasn't completely wrong. Maybe i was a little crazy but what i felt right now, it wasn't a good crazy, it was a bad crazy!

"Seriously, i'm really going crazy. Don't you feel that way? i mean, Dylan's at the party too" i said, following her with quick steps.

"The party? Is that the one you are worried about?"

"Uh yeah?"

"But stop now? Our boyfriends are partying, together, what do you have to worry about?"

"But what if something happens and i'm not there?" i mumbled in despair and collapsed onto the couch with another sigh.

"Please, i didn't think you were such a fucking control freak. Don't you trust Thomas?"

"Of course i do. But what if-"