My enemy since childhood

Chapter 110

Couldn't it been a little warmer outside, like summer, i would have taken off my shoes and run barefoot along the now snow-covered street.

In the middle of my frustration i wiggled one foot so i almost fell. I wiped my tears and leaned against a lamppost. This wasn't how it was supposed to be, i wasn't going to start the new year exactly the way this year ended....in tears.

"Why didn't you say anything? Why didn't you tell me it was Jake?" i shouted, not caring if he heard or not.

"Why? What the hell do you think?" Thomas said who was much closer than i had expected, and he was definitely angry.

I hugged the lamppost and watched as Thomas approached step by step. I shivered and realized i had no jacket on.

So damn typical. How many lives did i really have? if i survived this too, if i imanaged to avoid freezing to death. Well, then i would be fine with anything, i thought and shuddered.

I gasped for air when Thomas stopped right in front of me and i met his gaze in the light of the lantern.

"Tell me Y/n, why?"

"I don't know" i whispered.

"No? Are you serious? Why would it matter if i told you it was Jake on the video? Would it have made a difference? Uh, i don't think so and do you know why?" he continued but all i could do was shake my head.

"Because you didn't trust me! Everything was ruined, so why did it matter who had fucked Kylie? It was already over between us!"

"Thomas..." i sobbed, gripping the lamppost tighter so i don't collapsing.

"You are still wondering why i haven't had a relationship, aren't you? Then i will tell you. I have never had a relationship because it doesn't bring anything more than this!"

"That's not true" i whispered, shaking my head.

"No? You asked about my parents, remember? They hate each other and should have divorced years ago. Not to mention my sister, i was like fourteen when she got pregnant but i saw how destroyed she was when her idiot of a boyfriend left because of the baby. I told myself i would never hurt anyone the way that idiot hurt my sister and i was never going to let anyone hurt me the way my sister was hurt" he shouted, taking a step back.

I saw Thomas breathing heavily as he ran his fingers through his hair. I swallowed but my throat was completely dry.

"I'm sorry Thomas. About your family" i said but he just laughed.

"Sad? You have nothing to be sad about. I just had to prove to you once for all that this is how being in a relationship is, you just get hurt! I thought things would be different with you, i won't do that mistake again" he said and lit another cigarette.

"You said you loved me. You gave me a necklace and that damn wish list. Was it just to hurt me even more? Do you seriously mean that none of it means anything to you? That i don't mean anything to you anymore?"

"You meant everything to me Y/n. You really did. And that necklace thing, i honestly don't know why i gave it to you."

"You don't mean that" i sobbed.

"No? You know what's funny? That you were the one who screwed up everything between us, not me."

"How can you say that? After all we have been through" i sobbed, wiping away the tears as i gasped for air again.

"It's not that hard, it's just the truth. But whether you believe it or not, that's up to you" he said mockingly and slowly blew out the smoke.

"Fuck you! Have you forgotten who you are talking to?" i shouted as the anger took over my body, now there were no more tears. He wanted a fight. I will give him a fight.