My enemy since childhood

Chapter 103

I couldn't breathe, the air refused to fill my lungs so everything just spun. It couldn't be true! i stared at the screen but everything was just black. The movie was no longer than maybe a minute but it was the worst minute of my entire life.

"Y/n" Brooke whispered taking the phone out of my hand.

"He...."

The words just disappeared. It wasn't true, it couldn't be true. I bent forward and put my face in my hands. Everything i thought, everything i felt just poured out of me as i looked up and took the phone out of Brooke's hand and threw it as hard as i could against the wall with a scream.

"How the hell could he do this to me?" i screamed in despair and fell down on the couch, i had lost all feeling in my legs.

"I'm so sorry" Brooke sobbed pulling me into her arms.

"I can't believe it's true" i cried and tried to gasp for air but my chest hurted so bad.

"I can't breathe, what....what am i going to do? It hurts so bad" i sobbed and hugged Brooke so tightly that probably neither of us could breathe.

"I don't know, i..." Brooke began but even her words trailed off.

"I'm going to kill Kylie and i'm going to kill Thomas. How the hell could he? I loved him, how could he do this to me?" i said so desperately because honestly, it was probably me who wanted to die.

"Maybe it's just a misunderstanding?" Brooke mumbled so i sat up quickly.

"Misunderstanding? How the hell can you accidentally fuck someone else than your girlfriend? How can you accidentally fuck the person your girlfriend hates more than anything in the whole world? How can you accidentally cheat and then think no one will find out?" i said and stood up again.

"I didn't mean-"

"Say it! Say you knew it would happen! Say you knew Thomas couldn't be faithful to me! Say i was so stupid to fall for him! Please tell me how stupid i am!"

"I know you are sad-"

"Sad? You think i'm sad? The person i love most in the whole world fucked another chick and you think i'm sad?" i interrupted once more and picked up one of the glasses that was on the table and threw it at the wall so that the sound of glass shards echoed in the house.

"Y/n please" Brooke started but i just shook my head.

"Maybe Kylie was right, that somewhere inside me, i knew this was going to happen. Maybe i was so blinded by the love i felt for him that I didn't see it coming, that i thought he was in love with me too. But everything was just a game to him, just like everything else."

"Thomas is in love with you, i don't think he would-"

"You have for the hell seen the video!" i shouted and picked up the next glass.

"I know what i have seen! calm down nog, we can only..."

"Calm down? How the hell would you feel if it was Dylan on the video? Huh? How would you feel if your boyfriend fucked someone else and you find out through a video? How the hell would you feel if your whole life fell apart together in a minute? That's right, so don't tell me to calm down!" i shouted and threw the second glass at the wall and felt my head spin again.

"Come" said Brooke who stood up and reached from one hand towards me.

"Why? Why did he do that?" i sobbed when all the anger and energy had drained out of me.

"I don't know" she continued and put her arms around me so i burst into tears.

"Lets go upstairs" she whispered and led me away towards the stairs.

After a lot of back and forth, we made our way up the stairs and into my room. I stared at the bed and burst into tears once again. Was this how it was going to be from now on? would everything remind me of Thomas?

"Don't....don't say anything to my brother" i whispered as i crawled up into a ball position on the bed.

"Why?" Brooke whispered laying next to me.

"Because if anyone is going to kill Thomas, it's me" i mumbled and closed my eyes, afraid that there was more truth in those words than i thought possible.

As the tears continued down my cheeks, Brooke stroked me over the hair. I don't know how, maybe from total exhaustion, but i fell into a crying sleep, wishing i would never wake up again.

Unfortunately, my wish did not come true because the next morning i woke up but could barely open my eyes after all crying. I was so swollen and my eyes hurt so much that i wanted to go back to sleep and never wake up again.

Slowly i turned and felt that the bed was empty, just like the rest of me. I tried to clear my throat but my throat was so dry and it felt like knives were cutting into me with every attempt to swell.

"Good morning" a voice whispered from the door so i quickly turned to the door.

Brooke stood with a tray in her hands and smiled pityingly at me.

I didn't know what to say as new tears found their way. How was that possible? shouldn't tears stop? just like everything else.

"I have made you some breakfast" she said quietly and walked slowly over to the bed.

I stood up convulsively as she set the tray down next to me. Just the fact that she had made me breakfast made it burst for me. Would i ever stop crying?

"Y/n, i'm so sorry" she whispered hugging me.

"I don't know what to do" i sobbed and hugged her tighter.

"Me neither, but i have told Dylan that you are sick" she mumbled so i let go.

"Is Dylan home?"

"Yes. What do you want me to do with Thomas."

Panic shot through my chest so that i was close to throwing up. What if Thomas comes here! What the hell do i do then?

"Where's my phone?" i muttered, panicong searching around.

"Um, it....it broke yesterday" Brooke whispered so i stopped in the movement and closed my eyes.

Everything washed over me like a shock wave, the video, the phone and the glasses that were thrown into the wall.

"Can you....can you text Thomas that i'm sick, write that i have the flue or something so he doesn't come here, i don't want to see him, right now" i said and cleared my throat but quickly regretted it as my throat burned. Maybe i had really gotten sick?

"Of course. What should i say about your phone? I thought since i'm the one texting from my phone, he might start to wonder."

"I don't know, just make something up" i said and lay down on the bed again.

"How are you? I heard you were sick."

Dylan's voice echoed in the room so i hurriedly sat up. Shit! without meeting his gaze, i just shrugged and lay back down, closing my eyes. What could i do? if i opened my mouth, he would hear immediately that i was lying.

"I hope its passes quickly, Thomas missed you a lot yesterday" Dylan said amused so i had to bite my lips hard to keep from screaming that the damn bastard had cheated on me.

Thomas missed you a lot yesterday. The words echoed in my head as Dylan left the room. Thomas hadn't missed me. Thomas was not in love with me. Just the thought of his name broke my heart even more, how could that be possible. You couldn't break something that had already broken into a thousand pieces, could it?

"Do you want me to stay?" Brooke whispered but i just shook my head, i needed to be left alone.

"Try to eat something. I know nothing will help but it will go away Y/n. I promise."

"It will never go away" i whispered as I felt when she left the bed.

When i heard the door close completely, i buried my face in the pillow to hide the despairing scream that leaves my lips. This pain would never go away and my heart would never be whole again, Thomas had made sure of that.