Tonight I have to perform at the 30th Annual Grammy Awards , I'll be performing 'The Way You Make Me Feel' and 'Man In The Mirror'.
I also got nominated, which means that it's going to be pretty exciting. Of course Jade is coming with me and she is also going to join me on my concert tomorrow here in New York City.
We are now sitting in the Radio City Music Hall among many other celebrities , Quincy was also here with us tonight. I was wearing some simple black jeans, a blouse and a red coat on top. While Jade was wearing this beautiful and breathtaking champagne-coloured dress.
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She really looks like a goddess tonight.
Soon the ceremony started, and I was getting really anxious and impatient to know who the nominees are. Jade kept stroking and squeezing my hand, trying to reassure me.
At some point the nominees were presented, and my Album 'Bad' got nominated for 'Album Of The Year'.
Then it was time for my performance. I quickly walked backstage and changed into my black slacks, white shirt, blue blouse and my black loafers, getting ready to go on stage.
I started off with 'The Way You Make Me Feel'.
And next on was 'Man In The Mirror'. Once my performance was over, everyone stood up from their seats and applauded strongly. I looked at Jade and she was smiling proudly at me. I shyly bit my lower lip and looked down. I blew a kiss to the audience, bowing for them, before leaving the stage and changing back into my regular clothes.
When I finished, I walked back to Jade and Quincy. Anxiety started to grow even more within me, to know who the winners are.
After a while, it was finally time. The winners are now being presented. And I swear to God, I wish this was a nightmare... I didn't win the category for 'Album Of The Year' ... Whitney Houston did. I felt disappointed, angry, sad... it was my fault. I didn't work hard enough on this Album.
I tried hard to hide my feelings and not to tear up in front of everybody, I tried hard to swallow the lump that has formed in my throat. Don't get me wrong, I am really happy for Whitney. It's just, that I'm immensely disappointed in myself.
Jade noticed, and grabbed my hand, softly stroking my nuckles.
"Don't do that... it's not your fault, baby." she whispered softly in my ear. I flashed her a faint and sad smile, giving her a light nod.
