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Kabanata 84

At that time, I was hoping that he would change...for me....for us.

I always think that our relationship isn't always that bad. I compromise but he compromises too.

As much as he loves to party, I love traveling just as much. The quiet time I had in Greece always plays in my head. It was my haven. That's what gets me into traveling. I want to feel that kind of peace again.

I'm seeking alternative places that could make me feel solitude, the same way I felt it there.

When we travel, we always party. It is his compromise. That's the kind of life that he wants. The reason we always go back to La Union and Siargao is because they both meet our needs.

His friends always come with us. When I started hanging out with Adriel's friend, Gab and I rarely saw each other. Gab doesn't like Adriel's friends. Hindi niya raw masabayan ang trip at corny daw ang mga ito kaya ayaw na niyang sumama. Isa pa, pinagseselosan niya rin si Gab. However, it's non-negotiable. I would never unfriend Gab, he has to be okay with him. He is a brother to me, so nope. Gab chose to stay away though. Kaya naiinis ako sa kanya ngayon.

I can't even count how many we have been to Siargao. They even befriended some of the locals here. The one that we're staying in is their friend. They are more than happy to accommodate us even if it's short notice. Nakakasama rin namin ang mga ito tuwing nagpaparty sa gabi.

Grandma killed me with her words a moment ago because she heard that I am not staying in a hotel. She blamed Adriel for everything even when I tried so hard to defend him. She ended with how Adriel is a bad influence to me and how she really hates my mom for enrolling me to public school.

That is why I never tried to make the two meet again. I don't want Adriel to hear all the hurtful words Grandma has to say.

She knows fully well that I am serious though. That I see Adriel as someone I would marry soon.

It's our 3rd day today. After a day of surfing at Cloud 9, we went grocery shopping at the local store. I am so tired, honestly. Aside from constantly socializing with Adriel's friends, we also went surfing. I don't really move much. I don't work out and I don't particularly enjoy rigorous activities so this tires me so much. I'm mentally and physically exhausted. Masakit ang kamay at binti ko. My whole body aches but it is still bearable. Maybe...

They didn't even bother getting a basket to put the things we're going to buy. They just put everything on top of the cashier counter. When they were done putting their needs on the counter, they left me there while talking and laughing, and without consideration.

Like even a simple look and a question if I'm going to be fine on my own would do but they didn't even bother. Adriel is the last one to put food on the counter.

The lady on the counter is eyeing everything that's happening quietly. She stole glances towards me, Adriel, and his friends outside, and then she frowned, judging? I looked down and bit my lower lip.

Tinapik ni Adriel ang balikat ko at tinuro ang mga kaibigan niya na nakasakay sa pickup.

My mood suddenly turned sour. I am humiliated right now that no one cared and people around us noticed it. I just followed him with my eyes while he walked straight outside. He didn't even bother asking me like his stupid friends.

Bumibigat ang dibdib ko dahil sa namumuong galit at sama ng loob. If Gab is here, he would be saying his famous line again. He started saying it when I told him about my fights with Adriel.