Unforgiven __ °Avatrice AU°

Chapter 68:

Ava came back after a little while, opening the door and seeing her girlfriend sleeping under her blanket peacefully. She smiled at the sight, glad that Beatrice had finally found some peace. Ava walked up to the bed, laying down next to Beatrice and getting comfortable. That was until she noticed something. Her eyes went wide and she lifted the blanket slightly, peaking under it to confirm what she had suspected. Beatrice was barely dressed, only wearing her underpants and sports bra. Ava gulped and let the blanket fall again, just staring at the blanket, not sure how she was supposed to react. So she just didn't. She leaned back against a pillow and laid there next to Beatrice without saying a word or moving any further. She stared at the wall that was facing the bed, trying to keep it together and not replay the image she had just seen repeatedly in her head. After a few seconds of silence, she felt a hand on hers.

Ava looked down, seeing Beatrice looking up at her but not saying a word. She had her hand on Ava's, just holding it for a moment. Ava could tell that Beatrice was thinking about something or about doing something. So she just waited and let Beatrice do whatever she had in mind. That's when the older brunette took Ava's hand gently and carefully placed it on her abdomens, still holding it though. Ava didn't break the eye contact as she felt her hand being moved nor did she protest as her hand landed on Beatrice's soft skin. She simply watched Beatrice's expression, studying it to make sure what exactly was happening. Beatrice started moving Ava's hand down a little, making her fingertips reach the edge of her underwear. Ava stopped her hand and frowned a little.

-Bea, you're hurt., said Ava, not sure what to do.

Beatrice didn't move, still holding Ava's hand near her underwear. She didn't reply, just looking at Ava.

-I want this. God, do I want this. But you're hurt. I don't want to add to it. And you're under a lot of pain medication. You're not thinking clearly and not in the right state of mind to give me consent to anything. I'm sorry but I'm not doing this. Not right now., continued the younger brunette, looking at her with a serious expression now.

She slowly removed her hand from under Beatrice's, feeling bad about rejecting her and knowing that it probably took a lot for Beatrice to initiate it, but she knew that it was the right thing to do. She frowned when Beatrice looked away and pulled the blanket closer to herself, basically hiding herself from Ava. Beatrice was now completely hiding under the blanket, a seemingly childish action. The younger brunette chuckled a little, finding it amusing. However she also was aware of how vulnerable Beatrice must have been feeling, so she moved closer. She went under the blanket as well, looking at Beatrice. The older girl was about to turn around, but Ava stopped her by placing a hand on her shoulder.

-Hey, look at me., said Ava with a soft tone.

-No., replied Beatrice simply, not angry or mad, yet there was an emotion Ava wasn't sure of.

-Please., added Ava with a whisper.

She waited for an instant and then smiled a little when her girlfriend finally looked up at her.

-How about...we go to sleep? And if in the morning, you still feel this way, I will...I will take good care of you. How does that sound?, suggested Ava with a soft tone.

Beatrice seemed to be thinking over the offer for a second, looking away, clearly trying to come up with a response that will still let her have control in this type of situation.

-Maybe., shrugged the older brunette, snuggled up against the blanket.

Ava chuckled and shook her head, moving closer to Beatrice and pecking her cheek.

-Don't be grumpy. You will get what you want. Just not right now. Okay?, tried Ava once again, placing her hands on Beatrice's cheek to make her look at her.

Beatrice let out a sigh and nodded, finally smiling a little.

-Okay. You're right. I shouldn't be under the influence of painkillers for my first time., nodded Beatrice.

-First time?, asked Ava with raised eyebrows.

-I mean, yeah. First time for me., shrugged Beatrice, avoiding her gaze now.

-But I thought you said that Sarah-, started Ava but Beatrice was quick to interrupt her.

-Sarah made me do things to her. She never did any of it to me., explained Beatrice with a firm tone.

Ava nodded and placed a tender kiss on her forehead.

-Okay. I'm sorry. You never really opened up about it. I shouldn't have assumed. I promise I will take good care of you when you're ready. Whenever that may be. Just not while you're high on meds., replied Ava, trying to lighten the mood again.

Beatrice nodded, moving closer to Ava. She let out a little groan due to her broken ribs but still moved closer to her girlfriend.

-Hold me?, asked Beatrice with a small voice, clearly shy about asking to be held instead of being the one holding Ava.

-Of course, Bea., nodded Ava with a smile, carefully moving her arms around Beatrice and pulling her closer.

She wasn't sure where to place her hands as Beatrice had never been this undressed, not even during their last sexual interaction. She let her hands rest on Beatrice's lower back, just holding her close.

-Is that okay?, asked the younger brunette.

Beatrice moved closer and nodded against Ava's chest.

-Yeah. I like your touch. Don't be hesitant. I know I'm safe. I know you'll be soft and gentle., nodded Beatrice, just wanting Ava to relax and not treat her like a vase that will break at any rougher contact.

Ava nodded and let her hand relax on Beatrice's exposed body. She held her closer, just letting her rest. She knew that Beatrice was suffering, physically and emotionally, so she knew she had to be her rock. Had to keep her afloat. So she just held her close, protectively. She could feel her girlfriend's body slowly relax and melt into her embrace. She eventually heard a few quiet snores escaping Beatrice's lips, smiling at the thought of her feeling comfortable and safe. She fell asleep to that thought, happily holding her girlfriend. 

//////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////A/N: hope you guys enjoyed them being soft and intimate! I think it is clear what the next chapter will be, xd. (it is 4.1k words long) ANYWAYS, I DONT KNOW WHEN I WILL BE UPDATING AGAIN, WHOOPS, BYE!