Complicated ~ Nekoma

Chapter Forty-Two

"It sounds like you've got something important to say." Kuroo stated, he was looking over at you anticipating your next words. 

Your heart was racing and you couldn't believe you were actually about to confess to him the feelings you had been hiding away for years. Back in middle school you never would have imagined you would ever build up the confidence to do this.

But even now, knowing exactly what you wanted to say with the perfect setting and timing, something still felt off. There was something you still needed to do before telling him everything but you had no idea what that something was. 

It was now or never though. If you didn't confess to Kuroo right now you knew that you never would.

You took a deep breath. This was it. It felt like every little moment with him was leading you to this moment right now. You were meant to be here with him. You were meant to confess to him. This was supposed to happen. This was it.

"I do. Honestly I'm kinda terrified to say this though." you replied with a nervous laugh.

Kuroo flashed a sense of seriousness. "Y/n you can tell me. Whatever it is we can talk about it." he said. You knew he was trying to be comforting but his words only made you that much more nervous.

You took in a deep breath. 

"Tetsu I'm crazy for you. Like I don't know anyone who makes me as insane as you do. You're always making me smile and I don't think I ever stop laughing around you. You're comfortable and safe." you began. There was no going back now.

Kuroo was nodding along while keeping eye contact as you spoke.

"I think I love you a little more than just a friend. I know that sounds crazy but just think about it. You've spent how many hours around me and still haven't gotten sick of me." you said. 

Kuroo stared in surprise for a minute. Then his features softened as he gestured for you to follow him to take a seat on the porch. You both sat down beside each other on the wood of the deck, with your feet dangling off it. Your heart was pounding in anticipation of his next words.

"Y/n - you, Kenma and my dad are my family. You know that right?" he said, waiting for you to nod in confirmation before continuing. He looked to be searching for the right words. 

He finally sighed and ran a hand through his messy hair before continuing. "I can't believe I'm about to say this, and I really really hope I don't regret this later." he said. You had a feeling you knew where this was going. "To tell you the complete truth I thought about it. I used to think about it a lot. How nice it would be if the two of us ended up together. How we could build a white picket fence type of family with a nice little basement apartment for Kenma." he added.

You smiled at his comment. You had no idea that Kuroo had ever thought about you in that way. For your whole life you had just assumed that he had seen you as a friend and nothing else.

"The truth is that you are the definition of the type of girl I would go for. Funny and goofy, smart, talented and not afraid to go for opportunities, and so damn pretty." he said as he watched you closely. "But I'm just not ready for a relationship. I want to focus on school and getting into a good college. I can't give the time and attention a healthy relationship requires and I love you far too much to hurt you." 

You nodded. "I don't need time, we've already spent more hours together than amount of time majority of relationships even last." you said.

Kuroo smiled. "I know, which is how I know how amazing of a girlfriend you would be. But the relationship we have already is so important to me. I'm afraid we would start to resent each other if we jumped into a relationship without being ready." he explained.