Lookism: What Am I Even Doing?

CHERRY (6)

CHERRY: THE LIFE OF A FIGHTER

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One of the worst things about being human is that our perspectives are shaped and misguided by misinformation or biases. And those misinterpretations are then thrown down further into falsity by our lack of awareness for others. How can we be aware of what others are truly going through when most of us aren't even aware of ourselves? So that's how the world will continue to revolve. Misguided people make up the majority of the leaders, to the go-sayers, and the gossipers which leaves victims to swallow up in a fake narrative constructed by others.

That's why those who understand this often say to be compassionate to those who don't seem like they deserve it. It doesn't matter if they accept it or not. If you care enough, you can tell when someone is pushing you away on purpose. You can also tell when someone is pushing you away out of fear. Compassion could do so many things. It could even solve all of these misinterpretations. All we have to do is grow a heart outside of our own.

If only people weren't selfish. If they weren't, then the world would be such a prettier place.

Chiyo Inoue is a strange thing. A beautiful strange creature that I don't think I could ever understand. I've followed her movements during class and wherever I could yet there was nothing I could see that would have others so afraid of her. I don't think being strange could make people afraid of you the way they were afraid of her.

Watching has given me no answers and I refuse to hide in the bathroom stalls just for a small chance to overhear gossip. And it's not like I haven't tried asking the girls. Yua laughs at me every time I ask about Chiyo. Minuro doesn't answer and her sister gives me the dirtiest glare.

I want to let it go but I'm uneasy. Yua looks at Chiyo like she's something that needs to be tamed and reeled in. It's the way she would look at me when I first arrived. Yua wanted Chiyo. To understand why, I need to figure out who she was to begin with. I needed to know her history.

What am I supposed to do when no one wants to listen to me? I can't just sit there and pretend that the wheels aren't turning in Yua's head. It was never a good thing when she began to think. I'm scared that she was going to get us into trouble again. She had immunity with the teachers. I did too but how much? That limit was something I didn't want to test. I'm already on a watch list for breaking the cafeteria windows.

So far I only know these four things about Chiyo Inoue.

1. Her lunches always come with a side of small white and pink mochi's with cute faces piped on with chocolate.

2. She has a certain "interest" with Hikaru and spends every now and then glancing at the twin with a faint smile. Almost as if she was reminiscing about something.

3. During PE, instead of joining the rest of us after changing, she goes to the roof of the school and walks along the edge. Her hand is usually outstretched as she scrapes it against the tall wire fence.

4. Chiyo hates men more than the twins. She often leaves school early to avoid the dismissal rush and when she does encounter one of the male students she looks completely disgusted. And she doesn't even bother showing up to our lessons led by male teachers.

I tapped my pencil on the desk as I stared at the back of Chiyo's head at the front of the row. She was drawing a butterfly on a piece of paper while the teacher went on about some new project. Minuro sent me a note about five minutes ago telling me to just drop it and leave her alone. Well, technically it read 'Yua has it.'

Minuro was basically telling me to fuck off since Yua had something she was planning. Unlike her and her sister, I was starting to get really tired of Yua's little commands. Not that I really followed them anyway. She would usually tell me something and I would say no but she'd go on with it anyway, forcing me to make sure she didn't do anything too stupid.