I'm F.I.N.E (Demi Lovato)

I need you chapter 4

[ Demi's pov ]

she looked at us and said "I only want to speak to demi" .

[ Rachel's pov ]

my mom went on an rampage yelling wondering why I didn't want to talk to her . truth is I really needed to talk demi about really everything thats happened . It's only been a week since demi has been back and I'm already drowning in my sorrows.

  Demi calmed her down "it's ok mom its ok. we need to talk its gonna be ok". She did so and walked out with my father at the front desk. demi closed the door and stood there with sadness , more than before she walked in.

I got a pain in my heart from looking at my broken life . I look down in reaction . Demi then nearly cries to me "Why didn't you tell me , huh "?

"I-I don't know" I answer.  "Did something happen? something important" she said after .

In fact something did happen within the 6 months that she had been gone . I was raped by my father.

That is why he never talks to me or looks at me anymore. it was horrible , I can remember it like yesterday.

*flashback*

He came home drunk once while mom was working late at her gym . he came in stumbling around and laughing . I came down stairs to find him looking at me funny , but I brushed it off at first. I said happily "hey dad ",with a bright toothy grin He snarled in response "get away from me bitch . I stood there shocked and dumbfounded. Why would he call me that?

"I'M NOT A BITCH! YOU BASTARD!", I screamed at him in rage. He glared at me before roughly grabbing me by the arm, His nails digging into my skin.  He pulled me by my hair dragging me upstairs to are guest room.

He ripped my clothes off vigorously.  I was so scared,  I was weak he was to strong.

He plunged in and out of me, I scream every time. "Shut up dumb bitch , you know you like it!" , he said gripping my hips tighter, I could feel the skin being cut. He went on for what seemed like forever and I was just there I no longer felt pain, I was numb and would foerver feel like this.

After he was done he made these grunt noises and whispered in my ear so breathlessly (almost as if he's done this before) "Don't tell mom", followed by a sickening laugher ...and left.

I was shaking uncontrolably. I couldnt even cry , I was to shocked. To comprehend anything right now  While this monstrous person lounged around this house probably not remembering what he did, but I'll be left with the memory forever.

I slowly get up with my sore hurt body ,and drag myself to my shower and cleaned all the germs off of my fragile body . Tears pricked my eyrs then soon every where around me just flowing out my body as I lay my head back in the hot water .

I get out and lay myself to sleep never to speak about it to anyone .

*flashback over*

snapping out of my thoughts , to what seemed like forever. demi had still been standing there for like 5 minutes of sadness. I say to her in a weak voice "I just missed you , I get bullied I just needed you but I couldn't  reach you and every time we visted just wasent enough for me,I needed you".

" I-I'm sorry " she says . "don't worry about it", I say trying to get off the subject but its like we have to talk about this . she climbs into bed with me and strokes my hair . I start panicking for no reason just out of emotion , and being smart I open up to demi and yell . " I NEED TO CUT NOW ! "

I try getting up to find somethin sharp like a surgical knife . My eyes search frantically around the room until I feel demi's around me , keeping me from hurting myself. She

Surrounding me with her body,  *your not gonna do this , this is why your in here Rachel , baby its gonna be okay ,its gonna be okay ". I break down in Demi's arms  crying shaking into my own corner . demi dosen't  panic she is trying to calm me down when my ....

hey guys I know short chapter but I moving !!! :/ what fun -_- lol but I gotta pack stuff soo ill be writing more tomorrow