I'm F.I.N.E (Demi Lovato)

hell above ....chapter 60

[ Demis pov ]

I got home a little while ago , and went upstairs to my room to an long sleep . I woke up at about 9:00 and got up in my pajamas and went to the birthday girls room .

I opened the door quietly and looked over at Rachel sleeping on Dylan . they were adorable sleeping on each other like that . I looked over in Dylans direction looking at his bare stomach .

I looked over at his scars and just as I was about to leave  I heard " there healing , don't worry ". from an more than awake Dylan .

I looked up at him staring at me . I gave him and sad smile and changed the subject . " you and Rachel.  have fun ".

he smiled and said " yea we did haha ". I looked at him weird but then just forgetting it . " so I guess you guys really did have fun from the hickie I see right there hehe ".

his eyes got wide as he threw his hand over his neck and blushing . " dude , its ok just as long as there is no fucken sex I'm good ".

he blushed even harder at what I said . yes I know I'm dirty sometimes but I don't want them having sex !! he just kinda froze and spoke up " n-no d-demi we would n-never " 

I tried hiding my laughter at how uncomfortable he was and just nodded and walked away and busted out laughing in my room .

"ITS NOT FUNNY !!" , Dylan yelled from Rachels room . which only made me laugh more .

I planned on spending the day with Rachel today to ,celebrate her birthday . I gave her the day with mom and Dylan and I get the next day . I just wanted to talk to her and catch up on things with her.

I love her to fucken pierces and if there is something that I don't know about it will kill me .

[ Rachels pov ]

[ dream ]

please dad don't do this to me ! , I yelled as he came closer to me with anger filling his eyes .

"OWW ", I said after he back hand slapped me .

" look here you dirty whore , you do what I want , when I want , and how ever I want !"

he looked at me and gripped his hands around my neck choking me .

I tried to pry his hands off my neck , but he was so fucken strong .

I began to gasp for air as I felt light headed . whimpering " stop".

I looked at him one last time , looking at his red eyes of anger . and pasing out .

dead ...

[end of dream]

I woke up gasping for air and holding my neck . I all I wanted to do was cut , to release some anxiety , pain , anger , sadness .

I ran to the bathroom looking for an blade when I was tackled to the wall . I screamed out " NO DAD PLEASE DON'T DO THIS ! STOP PLEASE DON'T DO THIS ! ".

I opened my eyes and saw My father . He looked the same as before and piece of shit ! I don't know if I was in an dream or what ! but it felt pretty fucken real !

I closed my eyes shut and just started singing the words to my " for the love of an daughter song ".

" ITS BEEN FOUR YEAES SINCE WE SPOKEN LAST "

" FATHER OH FATHER PLEASE FARTHER "

" FOR THE LOVE OF AN DAUGHTER ".

I was yelling them historically , when I felt my arms be released from the wall . I didn't dare open my eyes to see my father again .