I'm F.I.N.E (Demi Lovato)

Next door neighbor...chapter 42

[ Dylan pov ]

I've been wanting to cut for the damn week , I just get madder and madder knowing I can't hurt myself . I just keep it all in acting like I'm fine .

we pulled in to the driveway into the new house and it was beautiful . I helped Rachel out the car and we looked around there are 8 rooms , 6 bathrooms, 2 pools , huge queen size rooms and and hug kitchen . we walked in the house running upstairs claiming rooms .

I took the the one next to Rachel and demi took the queen bed room 1 room down from us . are rooms are across each other . we started to get stuff from the truck and loaded it in are rooms .

we had all are boxes in the rooms and theses worker guys took the truck back .

[ Rachel pov ]

I LOVE THIS HOUSE ! it is beautiful ! I looked at Dylan in his room dating his last box down and I went searching through my bag and I found an blade ...

and all urges came back to me , I had been actually happy since my fathers death . but I always had urges . instead if getting close the blade I dropped it on the floor and walked to Dylans room .

"hey Dylan !" and kissed his cheek and sat down on his bed . he just looked at the ground and said " hey ". I got worried and said " bby what's wrong !" nothun he said . I got up and closed the door and turned around to Dylan ." what is going on , did you cut ..."

no he said in and deep cruel voice . I got down on my knees infront of him and looked at him and said " Dylan please please what's wrong ". still resistance he said " nothun is wrong ". I got pissed and said " DON'T GIVE ME THAT BULL SOMETHING NOT RIGHT AND YOU KNOW IT , NOW WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG ".

[ Dylans pov ]

after I rach yelled and me I shot up and tried to walk out the room , but she polled me back . I looked at her angrily with tears in my eyes and said " I'M SCARED OK ! I'M SCARED OF EVERYTHING ! I WILL NEVER GET BETTER WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO ME I DON'T WANT TO DIE BUT I FEEL THE NEED TO . I WANNA CUT BUT I CANT . I AM FUCKEN AFRAID OF MY PARENTS BEATING ME OR ME GETTING BULLIED OR ME COMMENTING SUICIDE AGAIN ! ". I was crying historicity and hyperventilating .

Rachel ran to get Me some water and I was shaking so much I couldn't even drink it . I curled up onto the floor into an ball. I layed there crying and demi walked in and said " hbu Dylan what's wrong ". I didn't answer . Rachel pulled me into her lap and I cited into her .

[ Rachels pov ]

how could he feel this way ! I hate it so much I want to help him I don't want this to happen ! I won't fucken let it ! I pulled him into my lap as he cried into my neck .

demi walked in and tried to talk to Dylan but he didn't answer . I picked Dylan up and sat him on his bed shaking into an ball . I felt so badf for leaving him but I was gonna talk to demi . I told Dylan " ill be right back bby ". I walked out side his room and told demi what happen she just looked and me and said " tell Dylan to come talk to me ". I nodded and walked back into Dylans room

he was just curled in an ball with he legs to his chest . I got in his bed and threw my jacket over him , showing all my scars . I pulled his body on to Me. his legs on top of me and his head with mine . I kissed his head multiple times as I brought him closer .

he just cried and cried letting all his emotions out .I held him every time . I spent my day culdding with him . he fell asleep after . and I got out the bed and walked outside .

it was 4:00 in the after noon . I just Sat on the front lawn crying into my legs . until and really cute boy came to me and he was just like Dylan expect his hair was spiked up and he wore eye liner . he came to Me and said " um hey , are you ok ". he looked and me and said " well um my name is Blake I guess we are neighbors ".

I looked up and him and with an weak voice and said " hey I'm Rachel nice to meet you ". he sat down next to me and said " if you don't mind me asking whats wrong ". I just looked at him admiring his green eyes and said " um just family problems ". " ohh ", he said looking at me.

[ Blake's pov ]

I went outside to get away from my abusive mother and I saw this girl crying . she looked beautiful but so sad . I went up to her and asked her what was wrong and she said " family problems ". I looked at her knowing how it feels .

we talked for an good long 15 minutes until she went inside . I totally like this girl I have to make her mine .

[ Rachels pov ]

after talking to Blake I kinds thought he was pretty cool . I thought he was pretty cute . I smiled to myself and walked upstairs in the middle of walking I was thinking " do I like Blake ". I CANT LIKE BLAKE ! thats crazy I mean I have Dylan he need me . I continued walking into Dylans room and saw him sitting up I ran to  him and sat on the bed he looked at me and said " I think we need an break , from each other ". I stood there ...