I'm F.I.N.E (Demi Lovato)

forgive , but do not forget ...chapter 18 part 1

[ Dylans pov ]

I woke up the next Morning with Rachel still in my arms . I moved slightly and she , woke up . she said " your awake " . I looked at  and said " morning beautiful " . she blushed and kissed me .

then demi walked in and started yelling " HEYY LOVE SEGALS  STOP SWALLOWING EACH OTHER !!! ". hahahahaha very funny . demi kept laughing and rachel Said " we wernt even kissing hahaha" .

she then said something that me and Rachel didn't like . demi said " time to eat....yes u guys are both going to eat ". I looked down and rach said " are promise babe , we have to try ". I sighed and said " ok" .

[ Rachels pov ]

demi left and came back with two small omlets . she handed one to me and Dylan. " eat up " , she said. I just looked it and gulped. Dylan said while holding my hand " on 3 we eat ". I nodded and we counted 1....2......3! we each took a bite of the omelet , to be honest it was good but I haven't eaten in soo long ...its just hard for me .

we each finished are omelet . I just stared at space and said " I wanna purge ". Dylan instantly took by the waist and dragged my toward him . he hugged me tight and said " I'm not gonna let that happen , your not leaving this bed if your gonna do that ".

I just sighed and face landed on the bed . he laughed and said " baaaabbbe I love you " . I copied him and said " I love you toooooooooo ".

I got up and said " I gotta shower " . I got some clothes to Change into after and Dylan saw my panties and said " I see London , I see France , I see Rachels underpants !!'

"DYLAN KYLE WILLIAMS !!!! I WOULD KILL YOU IF YOU WERNT HURT -_-" .he just laughed and laughed and laughed .

I punched him in the arm and said " get out !! gotta Change !" . he left with an devilish smirk on his face . I heard the shower go on in his room first and then I got in . I got in the shower , and looked at all my scars . "how could anyone love me like this" , I thought to myself .I ran my fingers over my scabs from my recent cutting .

I wanted to cut even more . just looking at my scars and thinking all the things . the monster in my head just naw and naw at my body piece by piece . I grabbed my razor from my secret hiding spot and cut my legns over again . I cut under the new cuts  from 3:00 this morning . I heard dylan turn his shower off so I turned mime off to see is he would come in my room . ofcourse he did !! he had to come in and ask if I was doing ok . I yelled threw the door " yea Im all good ! " he said ok and I could here him lay on my bed .

I went back to my leg after . it was bleeding to much !! , I started to get shaky soo I guess I had to do wht I had to do . I put on my shorts so fast so I WOULDnt get so much blood on them . " DYLAN !!!!! HELP !!!!" he came running in the door with all the hot fog and bloob on the floor . he didn't know what to do there was to much blood !

he Did something that scared me , but I needed it . he yelled " DEMI COME HERE NOW !!" she came running and stopped at the door to see everything . she came closer to me and I felt soo ashamed . soo I ran ...I took my towel wrapped it around my leg and ran . I ran into one of the rooms that no one lived in .

I did it so wouldn't be found , I felt soo horrible ... I heard them yelling for me . they didn't know where I was . until I heard Dylan coming closer to the room , I started to panic and I got out the bathroom and tried to run past him , but he took all his strength and stopped me . he yelled " DEMI !! "  she came running in with tears on her face and I looked at Dylan ...he looked so out of breath , and he was crying .

he picked me up bridal style to the bathroom and demi got ever thing she used to clean her cuts . she took the alcohol and cotton balls , some bandages and cleaned all my cuts . when she pulled my shorts up , she saw all the other cuts on my leg . I don't remember anything but looking at dylan and demi's face .

Dylan just looked at me so concerned and demi just focused on my cuts . he said to me " I love you" and kissed my neck  after that I

passed out...

chapter 19 tonight <3