I'm F.I.N.E (Demi Lovato)

death wish ...chapter 15

[ dylan's pov ]

we watched american horror story after the pool . I was later in the season than she was so .. I already knew that one of the characters cuts .

but I didn't think it would matter that much . Rachel layed on my lap with my arm on her waist . she had a freaking 46 inch t.v. well I mean her sister is thee " demi lovato" . so it was pretty clear , when they show her cutting its pretty graphic . she just layed there looking as beautiful as ever . I got tence when the show came back on . then OF COURSE SHE HAD TO GO TO THE BATHROOM AND CUT HERSELF !

like damn . she still layed there , I wasent gonna react unless she reacted . she was trembling on me , I rubbed her back and said " its gonna be ok , its gonna be ok " she shot up and said " um I'm gonna go to the bathroom , be right back ! " . ofcourse that ment she was gonna cut . she got up and ran upstairs . I ran up behind her still in my damp shorts and no shirt , her still in her bikini .

she tried to shut me out the door but I'm stronger than her . she ran to her bathroom . I followed her , she was looking for something , I don't even know what . she turned around to see me and I saw her eyes Change color . they went from hazel brown to straight green . I just said " woah" . she looked at me straight in the eye and just stared . she said " kill me  I want to be dead " .

I walked closer to trying not to trigger her because she had an blade right next to her . I closed the bathroom door and said " come here" she came infront of the mirror . I said " go ahead kill yourself , ill stand right here waiting " she turned around and said " how could you say that to me ?".

" fine then I will !" she got blade in an split second . ran outside the bathroom and into demi's room . I'm to quick for her , even if I did hurt her . I did something I would regret but I had too . I tackled her onto demi's bed , not a football tackle just a wrestle tackle .

i had to straddle her arms down on the bed . and that's when shit went down ! out of no where I guess demi tried to surprise Rachel by coming home earlier . but demi didn't know we were together. she walked in on my on too of Rachel , and Rachel crying . it just looked bad .

demi slapped me across the face . she was going to kick me but Rachel threw herself infront of me .

[ Rachel's pov ]

I saw demi almost drop kick my boyfriend!! I never had a chance to tell her in person though. she was always gone !

I yelled at demi before she killed him  "DEMI STOP STOP THAT IS MY BOYFRIEND YES, WE ARE TOGETHER I NEVER GOT A CHANCE TO TELL YOU , YOU WERE GONE SO MUCH !" she then yelled back " HE WAS GONNA RAPE YOU !YOU ...HIM...WHAT ....HUH ....DAAFUQK !"

"no no demi ...um I was gonna commit suicide ...  he was holding me down so I couldn't hurt myself ". 

[ demis pov ]

after hearing my baby sister was going to end her life , I nearly hugged the boy to death .

I apologized for slapping him and got him some ice . Rachel said she wanted to talk to me . I waited for her as she helpled Dylan on the couch .

[ Rachels pov ]

I helped Dylan to the couch with an ice pack in hand . I sat next to him and kissed him . he looked at me and said " I'm soo  sorry for triggering you , I was trying to use reverse cicolgy (tried my best lol) on you ,but it clearly back fired ".

" I'm sorry Dylan I just can't do this very longer I'm trying so god damn hard . we have every problem . we are both , anorexic , self harm , depression , and suicidal . does it ever freakin end ! " he looked at me and pulled me closer to him and said " baby it already has gotten better ...your perfect I NEVER get tired of helping you being here for you makes me feel needed on earth . your the reason why I have said no to suicide for the past 3 days and we still one day till I got to school ! lets make the best of it ".

I looked at him and kissed him . he  grabbed at the side of my waist . I got up and said " were not done " with an chuckle at the end of it . I had to talk to demi about him staying .

I walked into the room and found demi staring at the blade on the bed . I hugged her and she clung onto me. we cried into each others gap in are necks . she  said she would try to be here more . she was sorry I tried to commit suicide . to be honest , I'm glad I didn't I would have missed mom , Dylan , and demi <3 . demi looked at me and said we are gonna go see mom next month when she is done with treatment . I nodded wiping away my tears . I then told demi about Dylan ...

I told her that his parents beat him , he cuts , he is anorexic , and suicidal . he is my boyfriend and I don't want him getting hurt . she said it was ok for him to stay , she understands . "demi the truth is after you left that first day I cut my arm even more and more . dylan was there to stop me , he helped me . I helped him today to he went in his house to get close and came out with a busted lip .his dad  hit him in the mouth"

she agreed to let him stay on 2 conditions " no sex "and  " etheir of you come to me when we need her " .

I hugged her and went to tell Dylan . who was crying as soo as I went down stairs . I asked him what was wrong and he pointed down . his cuts they were opened even more , he was bleeding all over his swimm shorts . I ran to him asking him how did he do this . he pointed to the knife on the floor with blood on it .

I yelled for demi saying call the ambulance ! she said why and I said " Dylan !! he is hurt come on we have to call them he is going to bleed out" .

she came downstairs , and saw all of this . she had already called the ambulance . they got here within seconds . they picked up dylan who was going unconscious . I held onto his hand as they drove him to the hospital . they rushed him in and did there work . I cried uncontrollably into demi . how could he cut himself like that . he knows I love him !!  I'm so broken hearted . I could just die ....

the doctor came in  with an very happy mood  that kinda helped me think something good happened. she told me they just had to sewn his side up , he has stitches but he will definitely live . I thanked the doctor soo  much , soo much .

I asked if I could see him she said yes but one person at a time . also he can't talk much he is on some medication and he can't move very much but you will be able to take him home Monday, just 2 days .

I asked demi if i could see him alone she nodded and the nurse lead me to his room . I walked in an bursted into more tears he was laying on his back shirtless and stitches on his right side . I cried and cried I walked on the other side to see his face and he looked so Sad .

so miserable. tortured . I crawled in bed with him on the other half of the hospital bed . I cried as I looked at him sleeping . until his eye slowly  opened and then his other. I looked at his beautiful eyes and kissed his forehead soo many times . he tried to talk and I said " the doctor said you shouldnt talk baby and you can stay with us baby . also he said that you have to stay until Monday . he looked sad .but I told him I would never leave .

he was so broken , he didn't need to be at school . I told him one more thing before he went to sleep though. I said " I love you so much , and I will return the favor baby pointing at my hickie . he smiled slightly and drifted to sleep . I caressed his cheek and hair . until he was fully asleep . demi walked in and said " Dylans parents are here " ....

hey guys told ya I love writing my story ! second chapter tomorrow !! bye

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