I'm F.I.N.E (Demi Lovato)

Desperation

[ Demi's pov ]

"I'm sorry , Rachel I'm sorry I didn't mean for this to happen ! Not like this !", I spoke exasperated 

I looked at rachel her black hair covering her half of her face . Her hazel eyes shining green and brown. She looked as if she would break in seconds.  "Baby girl", I said quietly walking to her .

Before I could get all the way to her she pounced on top of me . Her tears falling everywhere on my shirt . "Sshh baby , well fix this . Your an lovato , your strong".

She only sniffed in response and I held her tighter and tighter . How could I have done this to her . How could I attack her like this, knowing how broken she is . I'm such an insensitive Dick .

I rubbed her back up and down trying to sooth her the best I could .

"Please , please just make it all go away", she looked tranced "please just take away all of this emptiness I feel".

"Babe , listen to me , I love you no matter what we are going to get through this together ".

"I'm sorry I did this to you . Even though I was mad I didn't have to get the situation to go this far . And I'm so sorry ", tears began to flood my eyes.

"And I'm sorry for attacking you , I just-just don't know what got over me . I'm so unbearably sorry " , she said almost crying again .

"No, no baby don't cry again", I cooed hugging her again swaying back and forth.

[ Dylan's pov ]

Rachel's mom was staring an hole into me , if looks could kill , let's just say I'd be 6ft under by now.

She just stared at me. No movement.  No talking . Complete silence . And it was honestly killing me! Give me an lecture or something! I mean I cant stand the silence . It makes the vocies take over ....

'This is all your fault anyway'

'She is going to probably break up with you anyway , I mean who would want to be with you ? Worthless piece of shit like yourself deserves to die . ' , the thoughts quickly breaking just by the simple mention in my mind .

And you know what , they are right.

Every single one of them are right.

I am an worthless piece of shit !

I deserve to feel this pain !

It's always my fault !

And maybe I should just kill myself, it would just be easier on everybody else .

I found myself starting to breath heavy . my eyes wanderd around the hallway. My thoughts were racing I didn't know what to do . my breath was starting to short out , I need air Im going to pass out!

I rested my hand on the wall near by almost missing it.  "Are you ok?", Ms. Lovato asked me . I couldn't answer her , my mouth wouldnt let me.  My vision was going blurry , I can't see.  "Help" , I whispered but I felt like I was being pulled into a trance. "Help!", I screamed but it wasent me , who the fuck could it Be?! I felt myself collapse to the ground , I yelled "help me!" But my mouth didn't move I felt like I was being ripped apart and put back together. I couldn't focused on anything except one thing. Rachel.

I heard her voice through my own screaming. "Dylan! Dylan!", my eyes shot opened and everything focused. I haven't moved, my body wasent being ripped apart. What the hell was happening!?

I stood up and pulled Rachel into a tight hug, whispering in her ear "what happened to me?" She didn't answer she couldn't answer. No one could answer me. No one could answer me what the hell I've been feeling.

I pulled away from her, still holiday her in my arms "where's your mom and demi?", she looked at me blankly before looking away. "Your not gonna like what I have to say". I took a step closer to her my lips nearly falling on hers. "My moms moving in".

I KNOW THIS CHAPTER ISNT LONG AND NOT GOOD BUT IVE BEEN GETTING ALOT OF MESSAGES TO UPDATE AND THANK YOU FOR THOSE REALLY, THANK YOU ALL BUT I WAS TRYING TO EDIT MY STORY BEFORE I UPDATE AGIAN BECAUSE ALL THE MISTAKES I MADE IN MY PAST CHAPTERS, I WANTED TO FIX BUT IM FIXING THEM ON WATTPAD CREATED BUT ITS NOT CHANGING IT IN THE ACTUAL STORY. BUT YES. YES I  AM BACK I AM ALIVE I AM HERE AND WILL BE UPDATING SOON. AND WHEN I SAY SOON I MEAN SOON THANK YOU LOVLIES , I LOVE YOU ALL