I'm F.I.N.E (Demi Lovato)

Weakness chapter 11

[Dylan's pov ]

we made out for what seemed like an hour!  I have really strong feelings for her ,the way her lips taste against mine ,the way she was breathing , her eyes , the way she looks at me makes me melt completlely on the inside and out .

I know I sound so feminine , but I couldn't give two fucks because I'm in love. I know love is early since I don't even know her that well . but I have an feeling ... an feeling That everything is gonna be ok .

Even if I do have scars, both mental and psychical.

While we were making out I opened my eyes and saw her right arm had fresh cuts on them. On her wrist they looked deep, she looked so happy how could she do this to herself.

But I do the same thing .... I don't cut but Im anorexic and scratch with anything sharp.

But it hurt more knowing she did it . when we stopped kissing she looked at her phone and saw the time . she had to go. But she left so quick I didn't give her a goodnight kiss or hug . That's when I tugged on her arm . Not realizing it was her arm she had ...you know cut .

That's when she winced in pain and I realized what I had done . I played it off like I didnt know. I felt so bad hurting her, so fucking bad. She went running all the way to her house not listening to anything I was saying . she shut me out , but I'm not gonna leave like that I love her .

[ morning ]

[Demi' s pov]

I walked into Rachels room to her shaking in a corner . she had and short sleeve black shirt on . I didn't know she had THAT many cuts.  I felt  scared for her . I walked towards her, she looked at me with so much fear .

she tried to hide her arm evern though I had already seen them .

I told her " its ok I saw them already let me bandage them. she got up slowly and hugged me so tight ,she clung for life. She is so scared of what everyone will think of her, what Dylan will think of her .

Plus mom doesn't know we moved yet . So I expect a call from her later today. I took Rachel into the bathroom and  she sat next to the sink and I got the alcohol . I dipped with a cotton ball and told her "this is gonna burn".

she nodded . I put it on each cut , regretting every scream that came out her mouth . She had tears coming down with every wimper that came out her mouth . I pleaded to her "I'm sorry I'm soo sorry that this hurts It's almost over".

I finished and wrapped her cuts up . I'm so glad I'm done cleaning her cuts, that was to much for me . she seemed calm after , she looked stable, I guess this Is the time to tell her .

"Urm Rachel I gotta tell you something baby girl". "yes", she replied. "I have to go to the studio and do some interviews today and WONT be back until about 12:00 am. do you think you can handle yourself ?"

She smiled , and I cant really tell if its fake or not, its to good.  "Ofcourse demi, I just had an slip up. If I want to cut ill just call you. I'm just gonna stay inside all day, probably watch a movie and try not to think", she said looking down once she said the last part .

"Okay , I'm trusting you and please promise me to eat something please please please".

She rolled her eyes,"yes fine demi I will I'm feeling a little hungry anyway"

I smilled and kissed her nose "okay Rachel I'm off to the studio". I kissed her once again on her  forehead and grabbed my keys and was off . it was only 11:25 , I have a long day ahead of me.

[Rachel pov ]

I wanna cut , I wanna die , I wanna be with Dylan. I want to be loved . I don't want  feel this way . I walked to my bed and lay there. Just as I was drifting of to sleep  I hear my ringtone go off , its Dylan.