I'm F.I.N.E (Demi Lovato)

break through ...chapter 35

[ Rachels pov ]

I woke up the next morning with blood shot eyes and an headache . " UGH ", I groaned as Dylan woke up . " what's wrong babe ?".

"nothing my head just hurts from crying , I'm fine" . Dylan pulled me in for an hug and I rejected him . " Rachel what did i do? ?!"

" you did nothing ,I just want to be alone. please leave" . Dylan got up and mopped out the door saying " if you need me, I'm right next door ". giving me an gesturing smile . he left and closed the door . I sat myself up in my bed and dialled an number h-h-hello ...

[ moms pov ]

I was just sitting in my room thinking about my baby girls .wondering how they took there fathers death .  I miss them so damn much . my phone started ringing and looked to see who it was .

IT WAS RACHEL ! I immediately grabbed my phone without spazing out . picked up and said " hello , Rachel .

r~ hey mom um I miss you

m~ ohh Rachel I miss you to so much how are you

r~ um well I got an boyfriend and he lives with us , but only cuz his family beats him . he is and good boy he loves me

m~ OMG Rachel I'm happy for you so much I love you , you know that .

r~yes mom I do now . m-m-mom I forgive you .

m~ ohh Rachel I'm sooo so sorry for what that BASTARD did to you . i he threatened to kill you and demi if I didn't give him to you . so I thought that would be better than having you both dead .

r~ really mom , he was going to kill me oh my god . thank you mom for saving Me ! it wasent the best decision but I love you !

m~ thank you !! so much you don't know how long I've waited to here those words.

r~ haha mom I have to go but I love you and I'll call you tomorrow .

m~ bye baby I love you

r~ bye mommy love ya

I hung up the phone feeling really good about myself and life . not so meaninless now . I have one baby back but I still need the second one . <3

[ Rachel pov ]

I hung up the phone and smiled , and real smile since I found out about my father .

then it dawned on me " my father was going to kill me ". I covered my mouth with my hand so I wouldn't cry , but as hard as I tried I couldn't contain them

they flowed down my eyes making my vision blury . I wanted to cut and die for everything he's made me feel.

Dads ARNT SUPPOST TO DO THAT THEY ARE SUPPOST TO LOVE AND PROTECT NOT RAPE AND ABUSE YOU  ! I yelled in my head . I grabbed my headphones and iPod and started listening to music before I did something stupid .

I began to listen to pierce the veil - hold on till may ( A/N that song is amazing . its so beautiful its about and girl who tried to commit suicide every year on May 1st . but she couldn't wait till may so she finally succeed to killing herself in march . its so sad and when he found out he dedicated this song to her . her name was Olivia something with an " p". but I just thought I should left ya know haha ) I slowly began to sing the lyric In my head

And as the sun went down

We ended up on the ground

I heard the train shake the window

You screamed over the sound

And as we own this night

I put your body to the test with mine

This love is out of control

3...2...1 where did we go .

I stopped crying and grabbed my notebook and pencil and started wiring and song . I don't know what to call it but I like it . I was slowly starting to feel better about my fathers death ...