I cried on the way home back to Nashville. I couldn't get the pictures that I saw of Ed kissing that girl out of my head. Every time I would close my eyes the images kept re- appearing as if they were painted on my eye lids. i looked at my wrists that were slightly bruised and I can't even believe Ed actually hurt me. Physically. I finally got home I dropped my luggage and ran to the bathroom to throw up. My stomach felt horrible . I'm tired of Getting my heart broken , I'm tired of having to live through the pain of heart break.
I wash my face and checked my phone and saw I had a miss call from Ed I Listen to the voice mail.
'Damn Taylor , answer your phone I want to talk about this .. '
I deleted the message . I called my mom and asked her if she could keep the kids a little longer. Telling her me and Ed wanted more time , Even though that wasn't the case at all , I just didn't want her to worry.
Ed called back and I answered it like an idiot.
'I'm on my way To Nashville I'll be there in 30 minutes.' He speaks. I stay silent on the other line.
'Your really bringing some good writing material . Keep it up.' I say Sarcastically and Annoyed and hang up the phone.
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'Come down Stairs Taylor.' I hear Ed say as he walked in through the door slamming it.
I get out of bed and walk to the living room.
'Get out of my house Ed! I'm not dealing with you , Don't give me your Dumb ass Excuse that its the beer!' I say and push him by the chest. He looked at me and Didn't say anything he knew I was right.
'Your stressing me out Taylor! YOU THE KIDS EVERYTHING! ' he yelled!
'Then leave Ed! You honestly think I haven't went through this before! CHEATING , THE MAN LEAVING, MY HEART BREAKING , TEARS FALLING, I've been through it all! ' I Yell tears in my eyes . I got a pain in my stomach and I fell the the floor. Holding my stomach as Ed stood there in disbelief of what I said. He knew I've been through so much . He knew I went through hell with Jake and Joe.
He came down to me .
'I need love ed.... I've been hurt so many times ..... its hard for me to trust people.....' I whisper.
'You know I love you Taylor... and this...' He picks up my wrists 'I didn't mean this.... I never want to hurt you... That kiss... I thought it was you , that's why I'm beating myself up over it because , I thought it was you... how could i have thought that?' He says his voice very low and more calm.
I sat up right and Tucked a strand of hair behind me ear.
'Its normal for Couples to fight... right?' I ask.
'Yeah...' He says .
'You hurt me Ed....' I cry putting my head down . Wiping my Eyes with my hand my Makeup getting smeared.
'You Physically hurt me... I saw your eyes... it wasn't you. I didn't know that person that had his hands on me , squeezing me.'
I cry.
'I can't believe I did that. I can't believe it..' He says.
Author note: Another update? YES.
