Roadtrip Oneshots

Mindy, I Love You Anyway

Requested by luthance, so I hope you like it! I researched a little too, so I hope I don't offend anyone :)

Also... this Oneshot is very short, and I'll be uploading three tonight as a result. And after these, I am NO LONGER TAKING REQUESTS. Just thought I'd let you guys know that.

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Mikey

'Please don't shut down on me Mike.'

My hands carry on trembling, my violent outburst from seconds before slowly receding back deep inside me. I can feel it sinking into my bones. A snake. Ready and laying in wait for its next strike. For my next strike.

I refuse to look at Andy. Too much anger. Too much shame. It all bridled into one huge outburst. I regret it already, lashing out at my boyfriend like that. But I couldn't help it. The snake had reared its ugly head inside me, and bit the closest person to me.

'Mikey. Look at me. Please,' Andy said gently.

I don't right away. I can't bring myself too. But when I do, I flinch back, shoot to my feet, fists raised. Enraged.

Although I don't know why. Andy watches my movements calmly. Like he knows I won't hurt him. But I can't control it.

Panic grips my heart at the thought of Andy getting hurt. I whimper, clench my fists. Unclench them. Clench. Unclench. Breathe. Feel the snake settle down again.

'It's nothing to be ashamed of.'

He's holding my referral letter from the Doctor. The letter that blatantly states my current problem. Borderline Personality Disorder. And Andy had to find out this way. I hate that he found out, and I hate that it wasn't from me.

His hands aren't even shaking. My boyfriend seems calm. Collected.

I shift my gaze to the crack in the wall, just beside Andy's head.

That's what happened last time I lost control...

I hear Andy speak, but I don't hear the words. Just the noise. To start with, it's soothing. But after a while, the more Andy speaks, the more I can feel the snake stirring inside me. Ready. Waiting to strike.

I breathe slowly. Close my eyes. And then they blaze open with a yell. Again.

'Talk to me Mik-'

'-JUST SHUT UP!'

I glare at my boyfriend. He doesn't even flinch. Just watches me. Raises his hands in surrender.

'Okay. Okay. I'm shutting up,' he says, 'but you can think again if you think I'm going anywhere.'

I bristle again, but manage to stay in control. A first in a long time. But the shame of having lost my cool twice in five minutes undermines my pride at staying in control. It drags me down.

'You don't understand what the hell is going on with me! You never have done! And that's the way I wanted it to stay, but...' I break off. Shake my head.

Andy just nods. Doesn't say anything.

I take a breath.

'I'll leave you alone for a while. So you can decide what you're going to do about me-'

'-What?'

Andy interrupts me with a step toward me, panic and shock in his eyes.

I stare at him in confusion. Shame. Anger. Pain.

'You hate me. You don't want someone like me in the band. In the vicinity of normal people. I'm a bad influence. I hurt people. I break things. I'm unpredictable.'

I would have continued to list more things, but Andy walks right over to me and covers my mouth with his hand. I shut up.

'I love you. I love you anyway. And I don't care about this,' Andy takes a step towards me, throws the letter to the floor, 'no stupid letter is going to take the love of my life away from me. Not without a fight.'

I stare at Andy, feel my own eyes well up with tears. 'How? How can you still love me?'

Andy just smiles sadly. Reaches for my hand. It's still trembling, ready to swing, but at his touch, the snake quivers and retreats further. In a dormant state.

'I always have. I think I suspected something was up, but I never questioned it. But I love you, Mike. So much. I'm not giving up on you. And I'm not leaving you alone. Not now, not ever.'

I hug my boyfriend as hard as I can, my body trembling. Tears rolling down my cheeks.

'I love you Mikey. I love you so much,' Andy whispers. Over and over again.

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