Tom's Sky (¡A Tom Hiddleston fanfiction !)

#53

Tom: have a safe flight, darling.

I read the text Tom sent me over and over again until i have to put my phone in airplane mode.

Coming back to Los Angeles was a really hard reality check.

But i brought the best of my unrealistic New Yorker journey with me.

Traveling because of work back and forward from town to town was exhausting.

Maybe i do need to go back to London, right?

Needy much? Yep.

Maybe waiting so long to have sex woke me up.

Not that i had a choice, i had to wait.

No one was actually begging me to do it.

But damn, the wait was worth it.

What to say and what to keep?

Should i tell Evy?

We didn't talk about anything at all.

Any agreement of confidentiality or something.

He didn't asked to keep it low, quiet, a secret.

We didn't talk bout how do we stand now.

Of course we are not a couple now.

It was just something that happened in the moment.

Just sex between two people that... desired each other?

Did he really wanted it to or just saw i wanted him so he made me a favour?

The fact that i'm desirable doesn't mean he wanted to do something.

Not like that, not that night.

Dear God, i'm a predator.

We didn't plan to do that.

I can't force him to be my boyfriend or something.

Practically I begged to him to stay the night.

He warned me.

And i insisted any way.

Please, just to sleep! I recall saying.

Bull. shit.

I lied to myself.

I can't even trust me anymore.

And the fact that he thinks i'm desirable and sleeping with me could be dangerous, it doesn't mean he have to commit with me now just for having sex.

We didn't have a baby or something.

HOLY SHIT!

The pills!

I'm so stupid, oh my God!

How long has it been?

I think i have like 120 hours to take the pills?

Oh dear.

I think i left my brain at the hotel.

What was i thinking!?

Oh...

I know what i was thinking.

And now i'm thinking about that again.

Ok calm down, it's been only a few couple of hours.

Why am i being so irresponsible with these stuff?

Back to when i dated Michael i was very careful.