Tom's Sky (¡A Tom Hiddleston fanfiction !)

#80

Soul mates will always
end up together,
No matter how much
love was lost
And no matter how much
distance there was,
You lose each other
To find each other
Again.
That is what it is like
When someone
Is meant
For you.
If they leave, they will return
And stay forever.

Maybe that's why i feel like i'm constantly waiting for something that is never going to happen.

Because i had a soulmate, the problem was that I wasn't his soulmate.

I was stuck with my broken heart and lonely soul.

No one could heal me but myself.

And maybe that was the problem; deep inside i didn't want to heal.

I wanted to remind myself how it felt, and how it hurts.

I couldn't remember falling in love with him, i just remember holding his hands, realising how much it was going to hurt when i would have to let him go.

Because i knew that he wasn't for me, i knew that at some point, i would have to give up on that poisonous dream that was believing he could ever love me the way i did.

Maybe he did, in his own mysterious way, but some people can love you deeply and desperately with their feelings, and still not know how to love you correctly with their actions.

I've been in this cycle of pulling and pushing for so long.

I think we both deserved to get freed from that because none of us knew how to deal with it.

Me, because i didn't know how to handle being in love with him and having to act normal around him without letting him know how mad in love he still made me feel.

He, because he probably could feel how much i loved him and couldn't deal with the situation without hurting my feelings.

So this was the closure i needed, i suppose.

I started using the subway just for a distraction, and give a chance to my soulmate to find me, since Nicky said i never use the train station.

I left home after a few days and went to spend holidays with Michael and his family, Momma Karen is the sweetest woman ever and tried to make me feel as comfortable as she could in the summer, because i wasn't used to the heat of Australia in december.

After the holidays, I decided to accept Harry's offer to start my little tour with my crew, opening for his worldwide tour.

We travelled a lot, starting the tour in Asia, specifically Japan.

Harry's fans there were insane and huge, they welcomed me as if they knew me their whole life.

We also did shows in Philippines and Russia, touring thru their beautiful cities.

I visited Greece for the first time and i didn't want to leave.

Don't get me wrong, i wasn't running from home, from him.

I just needed to give myself a chance to get out of my comfort zone and chase my dreams.

It was hard, yes, but i finally realized that i didn't need anyone else to be happy, i could make myself happy, doing what i love, i needed myself.