They're Like Us [Part 3]

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POV Shawn

With sweaty hands I'm waiting for my sign to go on stage. There are a couple of problems with the sound and therefore the show has been postponed for a while.

It's nerve wrapping. Normally Indy would be here or I would call her. Her voice always calms me down, but she's not here. And she won't be at my next couple of shows, or maybe all my shows. I haven't told anyone that we broke up yet, because I don't know how to say it. And if I can say it... I donmt realize it myself yet.

During the meet and greet a couple of fans asked about Indy and our children, but I think I could hide our divorce well. I've kept it very general and tried not to go into it too much, but I was able to burst into tears a couple of times. I wanted to tell my fans, the people I love so much, everything about Indy and me. And especially how stupid I've been to kiss Camila, but nobody is waiting for that.

"They fixed it. Are you ready for the american leg, Shawn?" Andrew asks. I nod quickly and listen carefully to the music of 'Lost In Japan'. Just a little while longer and then I can go on stage again, the second part of the tour has started.

On the one hand, I'm super ecited to start the tour, but Indy and I are only a week apart. The past week I went to the Raptor's game and did as many things with my hometown friends as possible hoping to get my mind on something else, but it didn't work. I kept thinking of her. I hope that this concert and the start of the second part of the tour can.

I'm going to miss Indy's positivity and the way she always makes me fight for what I want. She showed me that you can do anything, as long as you set your mind on it. Just look at her. She has given birth to two children, she is my inspiration for everything.

Andrew gives me a pat on the back and nods with a happy face. "Have fun, son." He says encouragingly. I'm startled by my thoughts, again I sat with her face in my head. I shake my head back and forth a couple of times and grab my guitar. I take a deep breath and run onto the stage.

"Do you have plans tonight?" I sing softly. The crowd screams and sings loudly. If only Indy could have seen this, she would have loved it. "I'm a couple hundred miles from Japan, and I was thinking I could fly to your hotel tonight."

With all the enthausiasm I had, I have sung the song. I look around and see all the fans, those are my fans. They are all there to listen to my music, so I'm going to give them the evening of their lives. I'm going to give everything I have to make it an amazing evening, despite my grief.

"Sorry for the waiting, there were a couple of problems with the sound," I apologize through the microphone, "my amazing crew managed to get it fixed and now we're ready to rock!"

The audience cheers loudly and that gives me more energy. This is going to be a great evening.

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ShawnMendes: Thankyou so much Portland. The show was crazy tonight, thank you for your patience with the sound problems!! Love you x
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