They're Like Us [Part 3]

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POV Shawn

All day long my phone is overloaded with messages on Twitter, Instagram and even on Whatsapp. A video showing Camila and I have been kissing is going viral since this afternoon. We were in a cafe and I had to kiss her, I had no other choice. We both thought it was weird to do, but we had done it before. But then it wasn't obligated, now it is.

Everyone knows for sure that Indy and I broke up now. I regret the second kiss with Camila so much, more than the first, but it wasn't that I had a choice. I had to do it. I'm so sorry, but there's no other way.

I'm now alone in bed and it is 3 o'clock in the morning. I can't go to sleep because I made the stupidest mistake ever. I spoke to Indy a few hours ago and I told her that there is nothing going onbbetween Camila and me, but now that the video is online, I can no longer deny it. Camila and I have kissed again ... And that is undeniable.

To be honest, I'm waiting for the moment for her to tell me and say that she has seen the video. She's going to be angry and I don't blame her. I promised her... and yet let her down. I'm such an idiot.

My phone is shaking again. I've been ignoring all messages all day, but something inside of me makes me look at my phone this time. Her name appears in the image and a smile spontaneously appears on my face. But as soon as he arrived, he disappears again... The way she starts the conversation doesn't mean anything good.

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Beautiful❤️: We need to talk
Shawn: Hey, what's up?
Beautiful❤️: You wanna tell me what's going on?
Shawn: What's going on? Wdym?
Beautiful❤️: Oh don't act stupid
Beautiful❤️: You and Camila
Beautiful❤️: You kissed her today...
Beautiful❤️: You told me this afternoon there's nothing going on between you two
Beautiful❤️: You lied
Shawn: It didn't mean anything, but I can't explain
Shawn: We're just friends
Beautiful❤️: "We're just friends" my ass
Beautiful❤️: Most ridiculous thing I've ever heard
Beautiful❤️: You know, I mean I guess I should be happy for you two
Beautiful❤️: But literally a week ago you told me you loved me and didn't want me to leave.
Beautiful❤️: I'm so done with you
Shawn: Jezus christ
Shawn: Calm down
Shawn: Did it ever occur you that we just hung out? As friends?
Beautiful❤️: I didn't know friends made out in public while being in a relationship
Beautiful❤️: If you really think I'm that stupid, think again
Shawn: We're not in a relationship anymore
Shawn: You broke up with me, remember?
Beautiful❤️: We were when you first kissed her
Shawn: I'm sorry okay? I'm not allowed to talk about it so I can't explain yet
Shawn: Fuck
Shawn: But I love you, you know that?
Shawn: I still do
Shawn: I'm sorry
Shawn: I should have never leaned in. I swear the first time was an accident
Beautiful❤️: So the second time wasn't?
Shawn: I had to. I had no choice.
Shawn: And it wasn't Camila's fault. Blame me.
Beautiful❤️: Then why the fuck did she kiss you back? TWICE
Shawn: I just hope you can forgive me one day...
Beautiful❤️: And why in the world would I wanna work things out with a lying cheater that I used to trust like you?
Shawn: Are you serious?
Shawn: This is bullshit Indy
Shawn: I love you so much
Shawn: Why the fuck do you think it's okay to treat me this way?
Shawn: I know I fucked up, okay?
Shawn: And now I pay the price for it
Shawn: But you're being ice cold against me. I dunno what to do anymore, I don't know how to fix this
Beautiful❤️: You did this yourself. I didn't cheat, you did!
Beautiful❤️: There's no way to fix this. It's over.
Beautiful❤️: You should've never come back the first time. You should've stayed in Jamaica. I regret ever going back to you.
Shawn: you know what
Shawn: Maybe Camila was a better choice anyways
Shawn: What am I saying
Shawn: I've always thought that
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With those words I put my phone away. I don't mean it, really. She's the best thing that ever happened to me, but right now she's taking the blood off my nails.

But she is right: this is my fault. I owe all of this to myself. And now I've to deal with Camila for another eight weeks as if we were a couple.

Don't get me wrong, I like Camila. She really is one of the sweetest women in the world. We don't see each other often, but we text constantly. But to pretend that we are dating... to walk hand in hand with her and to kiss her in public places, I don't really feel like it.

I much prefer Indy.

The love of my life...