Always

Chapter 76

I snuggled back against him, and drifted off to sleep, dreams of little curly haired, blue eyed little boys running through my subconscious. I heard voices, but they sounded like they were in the bottom of a well, muffled, trying to break into my dreams. "We have the results. We aren't busy so if you want to let her sleep longer, we can wait." I felt Colby shifting against my back when he moved. "No, she's probably kill me if I didn't wake her up for this." He sighed and I could picture him running his hand through his hair, worried about what the doctor was about to tell us. I felt his hand on my shoulder and his cheek pressed against my own. "Baby, wake up." He shook my gently and I tried to force my eyes open, while I groaned. "I know you're exhausted but the doctor is here with the results. Come on, wake up love." I was able to finally crack my eyes and pull myself back to reality. I blinked against the harsh white light of the room, let Colby help me sit up, facing the doctor. "Are you awake enough to comprehend what I'm saying?" He was a sweet looking older gentleman, dark hair with a few silver streaks in it, and stylish pair of glasses perched on his nose. I nodded, feeling my anxiety rising. I was awake now for sure, but I wasn't ready. Not at all. I didn't want to be pregnant. Not yet anyways. I wanted to get married and go on my honeymoon with my new husband and just be a normal newlywed couple, experiencing that new part of our lives. I swallowed hard, the force of it hurting my throat. Colby's hand came down on mine, gripping it, and squeezing. His rings pressed into my skin and I was comforted by the familiar feeling. "There are still traces of the drug Ketamine in your system. It's otherwise known as one of the date rape drugs. This one doesn't last as long as the others, but is still very effective, incapacitating the victim. The effects usually don't last anymore than an hour or 2, but the drug is still in your system. That's part of the reason why you're so sleepy." I knew that Tessa and Johnny had given me something serious but to actually hear the words "date rape" sent chills down my spine. Thank you Colby for being my hero. "As for your pregnancy test," the doctor continued. I tightened my grip on Colby's hand, and waited with bated breath. "The results were positive." I heard Colby's sharp intake of breath as he gripped my hand. "You are around 7 weeks pregnant based on your last period and when your ovulation should have been. I don't believe that there will be any ill effects to the fetus from the drug given to you tonight, but I suggest that you get an OB-Gynecologist soon, and follow up with them to be sure." I honestly barely heard anything after he said the results were positive. I was pregnant. What in the hell was I going to do? I wasn't ready for this. Not at all. My anxiety reared its ugly head and my chest tightened. Colby put his hands on either side of my face, turning me to face him. "It's okay. Just breath." He pressed his lips to mine for a second, then pulled back, staring into my eyes. His own were full of concern and shock. "It's okay." He repeated. "I'm here. I'm with you. We'll face this together. It's going to be okay." It's words were telling me one thing, but his face was saying another. He was terrified and I could see it...but he was here. He was with me. I took short breaths, trying to focus on his eyes and turn them into longer ones. My lungs were burning, screaming at me to just inhale, and let them have more sweet oxygen.  Slowly but surely, my breaths became longer as I stared into his loving blue eyes. "Good, you're doing great baby. Just breathe." "I'll leave the paperwork here and the nurse will be in, in a moment, to give you your discharge papers. Is there anything else I can help you with?" Colby shook his head, but kept his eyes locked on mine as the doctor left the room. "Are you okay now?" I nodded, but then shook my head. "No." My voice broke, as the tears started trailing over my cheeks. "What are we going to do?" I asked, begging him to let me know. "Do you want to keep it?" I hadn't thought of that. An abortion hadn't even crossed my mind. There was no way that I could go through with something like that. Knowing that we had created a life...that there might be a little Colby growing inside my body right now...I couldn't do that. I took a deep breath, easing my lungs, and let it out slowly. "Yes. I'm not ready for it but I want to keep it." I looked down at our interlocked hands. "What do you want to do?" I asked softy, scared of the answer. He let out a deep breath of his own, while his other hand ran through his hair. "It's your body. I'm okay with whatever you choose." I closed my eyes against the sound of his voice. I wasn't sure what his tone meant and it was bothering me. "I didn't ask you that. I asked you what do you want to do. I need to know your thoughts on this too, Colby." I looked back up at him, but he was looking down to the ground. "I don't know y/n. This wasn't something that I was prepared for. You're on the pill. This wasn't supposed to happen." My heart cracked in two, and fell to the ground shattering. I pulled my hand away from his, and put it in my lap. "You don't have to be involved, if you don't want to be. I understand." I tried to keep my voice from breaking again, but it came out on the last syllable. "I can move back in with Serena, until I find somewhere else." His head snapped up, his eyes flashing.