My Superstar 0.1 [#Wattys2020Winner]

SPECIAL CHAPTER 1.2

I watched her face as she slept. The doctor says she can go home when she wakes up. My cellphone rang so I went out of her room because she might wake up if I talk to my caller inside her room.

"Hello"..I know it's my manager.

"Where are you? You're supposed to finish your photo shoot today. We need to go back as soon as possible". I let out a deep and heavy sigh.

"Something came up. I met an accident".

"Whaaat?? Where are? Are you okay?"

"Nothing happened to me. I'll be there just give me an hour. I just need to settle something here. I'll call you later". I didn't wait for him to answer. I ended our conversation and turned off my phone.

I went into her room again. She was still asleep so I talked to the nurse assigned to her.

"Can you take care of her? I need to leave now."

"It's okay, Sir. What do I tell her when she wakes up? What do I tell her when she asks where you are?" For a while I was quiet and remained silent.

"Just say you don't know". She nodded.

"All right, Sir". Before I left the hospital, I settled everything including her bill. After I settled her bill I went back to her room and check on her.

"I'm going to meet you one of this days. For now, I need to leave but I'll make sure to see you before I go back to Korea".

We hadn't talk for years now. I don't know what happened but after we talked that night we stopped communicating. If I ever heard anything about her it would be from people close to us. Sometimes, I wanted to call her and ask her if how is she but I was holding myself back because we had nothing to talk about.

Two years passed, but she still had an effect on me. I can't remove her from my system even I had already someone special in my life.

That night when we have talked for our closure. I knew she was hurt and so was I. It hurts to see that I'm hurting someone who's special in my life but I have to do that for the both of us.

I love Carmi but I just woke up one day with something missing in my life. I feel like I'm looking for something I can't find with my girlfriend even though our relationship is fine. Our relationship lasted a year, we broke up but remained as friends. She knew I tried so hard giving our relationship a try, she knew I tried to give her my whole heart but it wasn't that easy.

Sometimes, I want to bring back the old Yuri I met earlier here in Siargao. If that happened, maybe even if I asked for closure, she would still try to fight her love for me. Because the Yuri I have met before will do everything for the one she loves the most and I felt guilty because I knew I was the reason she changed. I was the reason why she didn't overcome her fears of taking risks again for both of us.

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Napangiwi ako ng pagmulat ng mata ko naramdaman ko agad ang kirot ng tuhod ko. Tama nga ang hinala ko na nasa hospital ako ng may pumasok na nurse sa kwarto ko. Ngumiti siya sa akin kaya ngumiti din ako sa kanya pabalik.

"Kailan ako puwedeng lumabas? Pwede ba akong makitawag?" tanong ko sa nurse na kasalukuyang tumitingin sakin.

"Pwede na po kayong lumabas ngayon, ma'am. Maayos na po ang sugat niyo. Basta po huwag na muna kayo gumalaw masyado. Siya nga po pala"-- may dinukot siya sa bulsa niya, iniabot niya ang cellphone ko at ang resibo ng hospital bill ko.