Tenkai Knights One Shots

Stand Out, Fit, In - Chooki X Bullied Reader

A/N: Thanks again to Samie_the_dragon for requesting this one. This one took longer because I had to work on school stuff as well as this.

Key (italics = song)

Y/N's Pov

I was walking through the hallways of Benham High.

I could hear a lot of whispering going on and I could guess what it was.

I know they don't like me that much
Guess that I don't dress how they want

I looked down at my clothes, wondering if they didn't like the style I chose.

I remembered brushing my hair, but did I not style it to their expectations.

I just wanna be myself
I can't be someone else
Try to colour inside their lines
Try to live a life by design

I looked down at my hands as I sat down.

Was I too ugly? Was I not smart? Did everyone just hate me? Does no one like me?

I was confused.

I've done everything to standard, was it not enough.

I just wanna be myself
I can't be someone else, someone else

I couldn't be myself. I had to live as someone else.

As someone who pretended who didn't take all this in.

It was easier to pretend than to fall to their words.

At least, it was easier to pretend not to fall to their words.

They yell, they preach, I've heard it all before
"Be this, be that", I've heard it before, heard it before

I heard a lot of things from these people.

Telling me who I should be and how should I act.

They said it every day, drilling it into my mind until it was all I could think of.

Big boys don't cry
Shoot low, aim high

I cried myself to sleep every day.

I lost interest in everything.

I lost interest in school.

I lost interest in living.

Eat up, stay thin

Stand out, fit in

I stopped eating. I stopped living.

I couldn't fit in with the others and I tried to hide so I didn't stand out.

But I couldn't.

They kept finding me and hurting me.

Good girls don't fight
Be you, dress right

I was always told that girls aren't supposed to fight. That's what made them good.

I knew that I was good because I didn't fight back against them.

I didn't need to.

Because they wouldn't let me anyways.

White face, tan skin
Stand out, fit in

Maybe it was the fact that my skin wasn't the right colour.

Maybe it was too dark.

Maybe it was way too pale.