Tenkai Knights One Shots

Panic - Ceylan X Reader

T.W (Trigger Warning): Anxiety and panic attacks. I am warning about this because I personally have been through this. So if there's anything about this that will trigger something, please avoid this chapter.

Day 17: Ceylan X Reader - Panic

Y/N's Pov
I looked down as I made my way to school

There wasn't a lot of people on the way but due to my high social anxiety, I felt as though there were more people than there were.

That there were a lot of people staring at me.

Due to this, I do a lot of overthinking.

I tried to contain and control myself so as to not let people think anything of me.

I hated when I got any type of vulnerable, because then all I could see is pity from people.

It hurt because I didn't want pity.

I didn't want people to think that I was weak.

That I was vulnerable.

That I needed help.

But in those moments, all I could see was pity. Pity from everyone, even the people I should consider friends.

My anxiety shoots when I get stressed though, and since I had spent all night working on an assignment, it was through the roof.

I felt as if I was rising on a panic attack any second and I didn't know how to cope with it right now.

I had gotten to school and immediately saw my boyfriend, Ceylan. I smiled at him as I gave him a wave.

He smiled at me and came up to me and gave me a hug.

"Hey, you finish english?" Ceylan asked.

I felt my stress from last night hit again and I had to physically stop myself from shaking or panicking.

"Yeah, I got it done." I said, letting go of him and looking at him.

"Okay. Did you need any help with anything or are you all good?" Ceylan asked.

"I'm good. I got your assignment printed too." I said.

"Thanks for that." Ceylan said, kissing my forehead before the rest of our friends arrived at school.

We talked for a bit before the bell rang but that didn't help calm any of my anxiety down.

I managed to get through the first two lessons without having any sort of a panic attack.

I was fine through recess but could feel my hands slightly shaking.

I then got to english.

I sat next to Ceylan and continued to shake.

I had no presentation or anything but I didn't know why my anxiety was so high.

Ceylan handed his assignment in and smiled at me as he sat back down.

I couldn't look at him and kept my head down.

I got up and handed my paper in, and asking if I could go outside for a breather.

I went outside and sat down, holding my head down.

I could feel the effects of a panic attack coming on.

I heard the door open and felt someone grab my hands.

They slowly lifted up my head and made me look at them.

"Hey, it's going to be alright. Breathe and listen to my voice." Ceylan said as he started talking about anything.

I didn't notice him taking out his earphones and plugging it into his phone until he actually put them in my ears, putting on some music.

I had started calming down and after a bit, I was able to think properly and breathe better.

"Why didn't you tell me you were stressing so bad?" Ceylan asked as he held my hand.

I looked at our intertwined hands as to not look at him. "I didn't want to worry you." I mentioned.

"I know, but I'm supposed to worry about you. After knowing these happen to you, I worry about you falling into one of these and I'm not there to help. I'm you're boyfriend, I'm supposed to take care of you." Ceylan said, and lifted my face to look at him.

"I will always worry about you." Ceylan said, pulling me into a hug.

I sighed against his shoulder, as I felt better with him by my side.

A/N: Panic attacks are not to be taken lightly. I myself have had my fair few panic attacks, having a recent one only two weeks ago from writing this (3/04/20).

Panic attacks can come from a lot of things, like stress or anxiety, and can come in a range of ways, some can last for a few minutes to even an hour. I've had some bad ones on my own that I don't usually normally talk about.

This is based off the one that happened two weeks ago. I edited what happened so its not too invasive into my life but I still kept enough of it. I know that this is more of a rant but I did want to make sure this gets out.

Panic attacks are serious so don't take it as a joke. And not every method works the same as others. Personally, I feel better when my best friend is around so that's a way for me to calm down. It's different for everyone so don't expect it to be the same.