Rosé ✔

INTRO

I was 22 years old when I agreed to meet the perfect guy my mother had mentioned several times to me back then. I did not have any clue who this guy was, how handsome he was, how smart he was, or how many pets he had unless his family background that made my mother grinned so happily mostly everyday in a week. She did not have to mention by herself to make me knew that Choi Jaehyun—the perfect guy my mother had chosen for me—came from a super rich family that could help our hard situation. It was a wise way to call our poor life without disgracing our own pride and position. I could not more agree with this.

If I had two options to meet or not to meet Jaehyun, I would still choose to meet him but in sweeter and warmer way instead of cold and shameful moment that brought me into his life kind of roughly. I never be a party person but my ambitious mother just forced me to attend Jaehyun’s birthday party on Valentines Day. His parents—not to be mentioned—were the kindest and most genuine people I have ever met in my life. But the problems were on Jaehyun’s that acted so cocky, bossy, and amazingly arrogant. On our first meeting, I remember it so well that I wore the most beautiful pink dress and made my self as beautiful as I could just to impress this Prince Charming but he ignored me in the best way he could.

I was introduced to him before the party started then our parents left the two of us on those cold, unfriendly, and awkward situation that I believed it was only me who could feel it. Jaehyun left me after four or five words to join his friends and partying so crazy. I was standing near the birthday cake without any friend and I could not go back to my mother because she would think I did not try hard enough to be friendly and all sweety to Jaehyun. I did not chase after boy, hopefully it could enlighten those who think I was arrogant or shy. I left my pride behind to be close to that guy, on the other hand he was so full of pride despite all the cockiness he had.

The party was over without any good things happened between me and him. My legs were freaking painful but the worse things kept happening the days after. Slipped on the snow, fought with the girl he slept with, and argued with him. But the worst thing was trapped on his labyrinth that made me realized that I was into him so much. I desperately in love with him but I was so unsure that he felt the same way as I did.

“I do kiss and sleep with girls but I’m not dating,” he said it with his annoying poker face that made me snuggled throughout the days. There was time that made me felt so weak that I could not stand confidently on my own will. I never knew that ‘love’ could change me almost entirely. It might be good and vice versa but one thing that I am so sure about is my encounter with Jaehyun was the beginning of amazing and passionate journey that made me and him as what we are today.

“For the rose, though its petals be torn asunder, still smiles on, and it is never cast down” by Rumi will always be my favourite quote all the time. It sounds so empowering. Despite all the mess and scenes that happened to my life, I have to grow stronger. There are few people who surround me with love and lessons; amongst them all, there are specifically two persons that give me more love than anybody else, and I love them with all my heart.

Roseanne Park