Jessamine Dixon lives in the apocalypse

The Cell

I walked into the house and went up the stairs. They had been calling after me and I didn't stop for them. 

The tears were still falling down my face and I walked into the bathroom. I locked the door behind me and turned towards the mirror.

Seeing myself in the mirror made me want to shoot myself right then and there. My face had the blood my family members and I knew it.

I knelt down and grabbed a rag out of the cupboard and stood up again. I she hut cupboard and got the rag wet.

I looked at myself one more time before rubbing the hell out of my face. I kept rubbing until my face was burning. Then I kept going some more.

"Jess, can you talk to me?" I heard Carl ask and I threw the rag down on the ground.

"No." I said.

"Jes--"

"Just go away, please. I need to be alone." I told him and I could hear him walking away.

"You know, what do you think would have happened if we didn't go after Daryl?" I looked in the mirror and Glenn was standing in the bathtub. I shook my head and closed my eyes.

"Your not here." I told him and looked back in the mirror.

"Looks like I am." Glenn said and I shook my head.

"Leave! Leave me alone! Your not here!" I yelled and started crying again at the sight of his face.

"I'm sorry, Glenn, I'm so sorry. I let my best friend down and now my brother is being kidnapped by a psycho." I said and he shook his head.

"You gonna let that eat you up?" I looked at the toilet and Abraham was sitting there.

"I might." I told him and he shook his head.

"Is that how you honor the dead? By dying?" Glenn asked and I nodded my head.

"I don't know how to live without you and Daryl. I can't do it and I don't want to." I told him.

"So your big plan is to die in a bathroom?" Abraham asked.

"Or I could die getting Daryl back." I said.

"And that's how we died. Remember? We went to get Daryl and we got kidnapped where we were later murdered." Glenn said and I nodded my head.

"Yeah, and he could be dead right now." I said.

"It's not his fault and he needs to know that. You have to be the one who tells him...because we can't." Glenn told me.

"He thinks it's his fault because he took the swing." I said and Glenn shook his head at me.

"It's not. None of this was any of your guy's fault. You tried to sacrifice yourself, remember that?" Abraham asked and I nodded my head again.

"I do. I just wished it had worked." I told him.

"If it would have worked how many of us do you think would have lashed out? How many of us would have attacked him and died?" Glenn asked.

"We'd all be dead right now, the best thing happened. It was us or everybody." Abraham said and I shook my head.

"How can you say that? Abraham you wanted to be a father with Sasha, Glenn you were gonna be a father." I reminded them.

"I know, but I know you're gonna take the best care of them. Maggie's stronger than she thinks she is." Glenn told me and I shook my head. I put my hands on the counter.

"I'm talking to dead people. I'm talking to my dead family. I've--" I laughed at myself and looked in the mirror as they both looked at me.

"It's okay, Jessie." Glenn told me.