Depression/ anxiety one shots

I dont judge ( sh tw⚠️)

" Hey babe ? Can you grab me a towel and hang it on the door ?" My boyfriend Hayden called from the shower.

" Sure ! One sec!" I yelled back so he could hear me .

I found a clean towel in the laundry room and brought it to the bathroom. I figured I might as well just hang it on the towel hooks inside so I opened the door to do so and I dropped the towel when I saw him. He was in the middle of stepping out of the shower and blood was running down his shoulders and forearms. I knew exactly what he had done because his face said it all and I had been in his place before . Before I could say anything he shoved me out of the bathroom and slammed the door, locking it. It kinda hurt a little but I didn't even care because I was just worried about him.

" Baby?" I whispered trying to sound gentle.

" I told you to leave it on the door! Not come in !" He yelled at me .

" I know baby , I'm sorry , but now that I've seen , can you please let me in and we can talk and I can help you." I said leaning my face against the door.

In a less violent tone he said " How could you help me ? You wouldn't understand, and you're just gonna judge me."

" No , I won't judge you . I understand. Just open the door Hayden and I'll show you , okay?" I said hoping that would work.

I heard the lock click and the door creaked open. I went inside and he had picked up the towel and wrapped it around his waist .

" So? Show me how you could possibly understand." He said looking annoyed.

I pulled my shorts up and showed him the scars on my thighs.

" Ever wondered why I wouldn't let your hands near there ?" I said trying not to cry because I had to stay strong for him .

Hayden on the other hand couldn't stay strong once he saw . Tears started falling down his cheeks and he sunk to the floor .

" I'm so sorry babe, I had no idea . I'm sorry for right now too. You shouldn't have to deal with this , with me or my problems . I'm so sorry . He said covering his face so I didn't see him crying.

I went over to him and squatted down , lifting his hands from his face .

" Why are you hiding from me ?" I asked calmly.

" Because this is so embarrassing. Men don't cry , haven't you heard ?" He said mocking how the phrase is commonly said .

" It's okay to cry baby . You're in a lot of pain and crying releases some of that . You don't have to be embarrassed to have emotions . You're human." I said and I kissed him . " Now I'm going to get you cleaned up okay , and then we can talk ."

He nodded and pulled me back for another kiss . I got up and got a rag ,medicine and bandages. I used the rag to stop the larger ones from still bleeding and then wiped the rest of the blood from his arms. I put on medicine and bandaged him up .

" Okay babe , you're good as new , on the outside at least ." I smiled slightly and pulled him up from the bathroom floor .

I got him clothes to change into and then we both sat on the bed to talk .

" Can I ask you some questions babe?" I asked not trying to make him talk if he didn't want to .

" Yeah ." He said. " Whatchu want to know?"

I said " Okay , so first how long have you been doing this for ?"

" Probably about a month and a half." He said looking down ashamed.

" Look at me baby , it's okay . I'm not mad , I just want to help. Do you know why you do it ?" I said looking at him mess with the frills on my pillow case.

Without looking up at me he said , " No, I just get overwhelmed or sad for no reason, then do it . I know it's wrong but I had no choice."

" Trust me love, I know how hard it is , but there are other options. What do you think about going to a therapist babe?" I offered up .

" I don't know if it will do anything, but sure I'll try it . I don't want to hurt you again like this so I'll try anything." He said and wrapped me into a huge hug and we both lay down.

" You did nothing wrong , but I'm glad you'll try it . We will call tomorrow morning okay." I said and snuggled my head into his chest.

" I love you so much." He said holding me tighter. " You are the best girlfriend any guy could ever ask for . Also I hope you know your scars are beautiful to me and I don't judge you . You don't have to be worried about them around me ."

" I love you too." I said back , and he started to play with my hair as my arms were wrapped around him.

We lay there just like that until we fell asleep.