Depression/ anxiety one shots

Bad reaction sh⚠️ tw

" Babe! Could you hurry up in the bathroom! I need to get in there !" My boyfriend Sam yelled to me while knocking on the door.

" Yeah just a minute, sorry." I said trying to keep my voice from breaking while I was in the middle of cleaning up the mess I had made on my skin and on the floor .

Obviously I didn't sound 100% solid because he asked , " You okay ?"

" Yeah I'm fine ." I said but I couldn't hold myself back any longer and started to cry.

" You are obviously not fine babe. I'm coming in." He said sternly and went to get the key.

" No don't come in!" I yelled as I tried to hold the lock and my arm to stop it from bleeding at the same time.

I had no luck and the door swung open. His eyes glanced down at my mascara stained face , then to the blood on the floor , then to my arm.

" Sam, I'm sorry." I said and hung my head .

" Give me the blade right now !" He yelled ignoring my apology and trying to grab it from my hand.

I fought him but he managed to get it from me . I figured he would flush it down the toilet, so I went and sat down on top of it , still holding my arm. He looked at what I did and then did something so idiotic, so insane , I couldn't even believe what I had seen. He took the blade and sliced it across his arm.

" Babe! Stop , what are you doing !" I yelled and raced over to him .

He did it again before I could grab the blade from him . I threw it in the toilet and flushed it. I could always get a new one later but I couldn't let him have it.

I let go of my arm which had basically stopped bleeding and got a new towel from the cabinet to hold to his . I started to put pressure on them to stop the bleeding .

" Babe why on the earth did you just do that?" I questioned him crying .

" Because you shouldn't mind me doing it to myself if you can do it to yourself." He said angrily.

I was going to try to combat his point but before I could he started to feel dizzy.

" Hey babe. I'm not feeling too well." Sam said and it looked like he was about to pass out so I quickly helped him to the floor .

I knew he cut deeper than he intended because he had zero clue what he was doing and it was fueled by anger at me . He passed out for a second but woke up shortly after .

" What happened?" He looked at me confused how he was sitting on the floor.

" You passed out . Just for a second though . You'll be okay , I just gotta stop the bleeding for you." I said and kept pressure on his wounds .

We sat there in silence until I got his cuts to stop bleeding.

" Okay babe, I have to clean them now okay . Especially because you used the same blade I did . I don't want you to get an infection." I said as I grabbed the antiseptic spray , Neosporin, and bandages.

He mustered out a small, " Ok." and I sprayed the spray on his arm.

He winced and looked relieved when I stopped and put on the Neosporin. As I was bandaging his arm , he looked at me and asked , " I don't think I want to know the answer , but how long have you done this to yourself, because you are clearly experienced in what to do?"

" On and off again for the past 3 years ." I said emotionless and finished wrapping up his arm.

" All done." I said to him and he stared at me with such sad eyes as I reached for the spray to clean myself up .

" No baby." He said and he grabbed the spray from my hand. " Let me help you . I shouldn't have reacted that way and done that and I'm really sorry. I was just so hurt that you were so hurt and I didn't know . I can't fix what I did but I can take care of you . Can I please?" He asked

His apology made me break into tears again and I nodded that he could clean me up. He sprayed the spray on my arm, his face dropping a little when I didn't wince, because he knew that meant I was very used to it . He then applied the Neosporin and bandaged my arm in the way I did his.

I went to grab the rag to finish cleaning the floor and everything, but he grabbed it before I could.

" I'm cleaning it up . You just go lay in bed and I'll be there in a minute okay." Sam said as he began to clean.

I layed down on my side of the bed and after about 5 minutes, Sam joined me . I was facing away from when he layed down next to me.

" Please turn around sweetie." Sam said.

I turned to face him and he had a makeup wipe in his hands .

" For the mascara." He said and wiped the stained streaks off my face .

" We can talk about it if you want . Or we can just go to sleep and talk it out tomorrow." Sam said pulling me closer to him.

" Tomorrow ." I whispered out and welcomed the closeness between us.

" Okay baby. Goodnight then , I love you." He said .

" I love you too. Goodnight." I said , and I fell asleep with him playing with my hair.