Depression/ anxiety one shots

Tough love doesnt always work tw sh⚠️

*Mature language, not for children*

I woke up around 10am. As soon as I checked the time I went right back to sleep. I felt myself stuck in a pretty dense depressive episode and I just wanted to sleep all day to avoid feeling bad. Time sort of flew by while also being insanely slow and I realized I had been in bed nearly 3 entire days except to use the bathroom. My girlfriend had been blowing up my phone and I'd just been ignoring her because I was too tired to respond. I get how that wasn't super cool of me but I just couldn't answer.

A couple hours later I heard my door open and was woken by Scarlett's loud calling of my name.

"Mandy, where are you?!" She yelled out.

I stuffed the pillow over my head to try and go back to sleep but she opened my door and flicked a light on. It was 6 pm.

" Turn that off!" I yelled angrily.

"No." She said upset. "What the fuck is wrong Mandy, you've been ghosting me, you don't ghost your girlfriend and you know that."

"Just turn out the damn light and I'll talk to you." I said getting more pissed off.

"You know what! Get out of bed and come into the living room like a normal fucking person." She said and yanked the comforter off me.

" You fucking bitch!" I said and roughly got out of bed and ripped the comforter right out of her hands before climbing back into bed with it.

" I'm done. Call me when you're ready to be a grown up." She said and slammed the door before I heard her shut and lock my front door using her key.

I wanted to cry so badly but I couldn't. I needed to feel something though so I did. I leaned over and grabbed my pocket knife from my drawer.

I began to drag it against my arm until I felt what I wanted to feel and then I tossed it on my desk not caring because Scarlett wouldn't be back anytime soon.

Turns out I was wrong and she left her car key in my room so minutes later I heard my front door open again. She opened my door and saw me fully huddled under my blankets, more so than before.

" Sorry I left my car key and didn't realize till I was already back at my car. You seen it?" She asked.

" No." I said quietly.

I closed my eyes as she searched but forgot to move the knife.

A minute or so later I felt Scarlett climb next to me in bed and she started rubbing my back before speaking.

" I'm sorry love. I got angry and overreacted towards you. I need to know though now okay? I won't be mad, you gotta show me your arms princess." She said softly.

I felt my face sink, but I rolled over and held my arms so she could check over them both. Both had scars but only one I had harmed just minutes before.

" I got you." She said and held me for a bit. "Lemme go get some stuff to clean you up with okay."

"Okay." I said stoically.

She came back with bandages, antibacterial ointment, and antiseptic spray.

" Alright sweetie, just gonna clean you up now yeah? That good?" She said but also asked me.

" Yeah." I said and so she begun.

" I'm sorry to." I said. " I was rude."

" It's okay baby. I'm passed that now. I just want to be here with you now and make sure you're safe because I love you." Scarlett said as she finished her nursing duty.

" You eat recently?" She asked.

" You want the answer I want to give or the truth?" I asked half sarcastically.

" The truth, whatever it may be." She said.

" No. I don't know when the last time I did was. It's been so long in my head. I'm tired." I said.

" Oh I know baby. But I want to get you some food so just tell me what you want and you can nap while it's being delivered." She said as she tucked a piece of my hair behind my ear.

" Okay, Mexican food." I said. It's not like I wasn't hungry, I just couldn't go get food or even go to the door to order in.

" Alright love, I'll order you some options and I'll just eat whatever you don't want." She said.

" Thank you." I said.

" Of course. And Mandy, before you go back to sleep." She said. " I want you to know that I remember am here. Call me if you ever want to do that again and I'm not here, please."

" I will." I said and fell back asleep.