Depression/ anxiety one shots

More than a mistake (tw sh⚠️⚠️)

Did I fuck up? Yes, one-hundred percent yes. I'll admit that, but I didn't expect to feel the way I did afterwards. I didn't realize I had offended her, my friend that is. Long story short my friend Celine and I were at the fair and we decided to go on a ride but when I saw the test seat I realized it might be a pretty tight fit for her and wanted to spare her from the potential hurt of a rude ride attendant, so I made a suggestion.

" Hey, I'm not sure I really want to go on this ride, you wanna go on a different one?" I said nonchalantly.

" I mean, I kind of want to go on this one and we are already in line, why'd you change your mind?" She asked, confused.

" I don't know, I just feel like it won't be that fun and there's better ones we could go on instead of waiting in this long line." I said. I didn't want to tell her the truth because I didn't want to hurt her feelings in any way.

" Okay, well you were raving about it earlier so why are you lying to me right now?" She said, getting angrier by the minute.

" I just really think we should check out the other rides here that's all." I said calmly.

" I don't know what your issue is right now Keona but I'm not having fun in this conversation so whatever, you don't want to ride the ride so let's just leave it." Celine said, clearly annoyed with me.

We got out of line and went back on the main path to walk to other rides when suddenly Celine stopped and spoke like she had come to a realization.

"Oh I get it now, you're embarrassed to ride with me." She said as she crossed her arms.

" What! No, that's not it at all, why would I be embarrassed to ride with you?" I asked.

" Really Keona. Don't stand there and pretend to be clueless. Tell me the truth, why'd we need to leave the line?" She asked, demanding an answer from me.

" Okay fine." I said trying to stay cool but feeling myself getting upset at how she was talking to me. " I saw the test seat and I've had other friends be humiliated by the ride worker when the seat was too small for them and I didn't want that to happen to you."

" Really, so that's how it is huh. You think that because I'm fat that I can't make my own judgment on what rides I think I can fit on. You do realize that I have eyes too right? Like I saw the seat as well and I too thought it might be a squeeze but I was willing to try and find out for sure because I can take rejection like a normal person. I'm not fragile and I can't believe you assumed I was. Figure out your own way home and don't call me." She said and stormed off from me before I could apologize, leaving me standing alone with nothing but the rush of emotions I was feeling.

I went to the parking lot to try and catch her to apologize but she had already driven off. I sat on a curb and pulled out my phone to text her.

" Celine I am so sorry for how I acted towards you. You're completely right, I never should have assumed that you couldn't handle things and I shouldn't have lied to you when you first asked me why I wanted to leave the line. I truly did just want you to avoid getting hurt but I crossed a line and I really am sorry." I texted her.

A couple minutes later I saw that the message was read but not answered, so I double texted.

" I don't expect your forgiveness right now whatsoever, I just needed you to know I am sorry." I texted.

It tried to send but then came back as "message not delivered", meaning she had blocked me.

I felt sad and guilty but my first priority before letting myself feel things was figuring out how to get home. I couldn't afford an uber that far away, and my parents lived hours away so no chance they would come to get me. I thought about taking the bus but then realized I had left my purse in Celine's car and I only had my phone and keys on me.