Depression/ anxiety one shots

Scared of rejection (tw sh⚠️)

Not graphic but still gonna say this one is 18+

"Can I take you out of that shirt baby?" I asked my girlfriend Corin, smirking as we pulled apart our lips in order to catch a breath.

She nodded, but rather than go to take her shirt off, I reached out and lifted her chin a bit so our eyes met.

"You know you have to use your words if you want something, so use them." I said sharply.

"Yes, please take my shirt off." She said and I released her chin.

" Atta girl." I replied and tore off her shirt, throwing it across the room.

I began kissing her again, but left her lips lonesome to move down her body, first peppering kisses down her neck, before moving onto her shoulders, and then her chest.

"Mmm baby you look so beautiful." I whispered in her ear before going back to kissing her lips.

" I'd like to appreciate your beauty a bit more, can I take your bra off love?" I asked seductively.

" If you don't I'll do it myself." She said playfully.

"That's what I like to hear." I said back, and reached behind her to unclasp her bra.

I kept my attention on her boobs for a while until I could tell she was getting extremely needy.

"Baby you look so scrumptious, scrumptious enough to eat even. Would you like that?" I said licking my lips unconsciously.

" Yes, I would love that!" She exclaimed excitedly and scooted back to lay down a bit.

I went to take her pants off her but she stopped me. " Lights off first please."

" Sure love, whatever you need." I said and stopped immediately to go turn the lights off.

" Alright, you ready now baby?" I asked, making sure I knew she was good to go.

"Yes." She spoke, so I unbuttoned her pants and slowly slid them off of her.

I began to kiss up her thighs but stopped once I felt my lips sort of catch on something for a split second. I tried to play it off and run my fingers up her thighs to feel what it was, but right as I got to the spot I had noticed, she freaked out.

"Stop, please stop!" She shrieked and moved her knees up to her chest, shielding herself.

" It's alright, I'll stop, it's okay. Let's sit you up though, you can trust me." I said calmly as I reached over and turned on the lamp.

I took the blanket off the bottom of the bed and covered her with it to try and make her more comfortable. " Sit up for me love, I got you."

She hesitantly sat up and began to cry so I reached out to hug her but she didn't let me.

" No." She said unintentionally harshly.

" Okay no hug, I'm sorry baby. Talk to me, I need to know what made you uncomfortable because I don't wanna repeat it." I told her.

" It's not you." She sobbed. " It's me, you wouldn't want to hug me if you knew. You'd be so disappointed in me."

" I could never be disappointed in you darling, just tell me. I promise you I won't be mad. I promise Corin." I assured her.

Rather than saying anything, she just moved the blanket off herself and I saw what had made her so upset. Her thigh had a few deep gashes that looked new, as well as numerous other cuts in different stages of healing.

" Was this today?" I asked, maintaining my calm demeanor so as to not freak her out further.

She simply nodded and I accepted that it was a yes.

" Okay, and did you clean them?" I inquired.

"No, I'm so sorry." She cried.

" It's okay love, but I gotta clean them now alright." I said as I got her a big shirt of mine and helped her to the bathroom.

I got out some antiseptic, neosporin, and bandages.

" Sit for me honey." I said and gestured to the closed toilet seat, so she sat.

" I'm just gonna pour some of this on your thigh and if it hurts you can squeeze my shoulder as hard as you need to. Now can I touch you, it's gonna be easier if I can hold your leg in place?" I asked.

" Yeah." She said and I could tell she was a bit fearful.

"It's gonna be okay, put your hand on my shoulder in case you need it." I said as I bent down over her ready to pour the antiseptic.

She grabbed my shoulder so I counted down for her. " One." I started. " Two." I grabbed her thigh on the inside to hold it in place. "Three." I said and poured it as quickly as I could on her cuts making sure they were all properly reached.

" It hurts, stop, please stop!" She cried out as she dug her nails into my shoulder.

" It's done baby, all done. You did so good love." I said and immediately began to comfort her by gently rubbing up and down her arm.

" Okay so now I'm just gonna put this neosporin on, get you a bandage, and then we are heading to the store." I explained.

"For what?" She asked confused as I began to spread the ointment.

" Steristrips Corin, realistically you need stitches but I know you won't go for that, so this will have to do, am I right?" I asked, already knowing the answer.

" No stitches." She agreed.

" Alright, then the store it is, and I hate to make you come along, but I can't leave you alone here right now." I said as I finished up with the ointment and got the  bandage out. " This is just for now so no germs get in."

" Okay." She said and I could see how sad she still was even though her tears had nearly subsided.

" Do you want to talk about it?" I asked as I finished with the bandage and went to grab her some sweats.

" You couldn't understand." She replied.

" Maybe, maybe not, but you better believe that my understanding means nothing in how I'm gonna be here for you. You're my girl, the woman I love, and I will always be here for you. Whatever you need from me, it's yours." I explained.

" I love you Sadie." She said.

" I love you too." I replied.

" I did most of it a few days ago, I thought your vacation was this week instead of next, so I thought I had time. Today I remembered I was wrong and you were going to find out, so I panicked and did it more. I just hoped you wouldn't be able to tell with the lights off." Corin told me, ashamed.

" Can I ask why?" I asked, taking her hand.

" I've been thinking about it for a couple weeks and finally did it the other day. I'm just, I think something is wrong with me Sades." She said holding tightly to my hand.

" Something is wrong, but nothing is wrong with you. You need chemicals that aren't there, that isn't on you, you didn't choose that. None of this is your fault love, none." I said placing my hand very cautiously over her bandage.

" Now let's go get stuff to fix you up better and we'll talk more in the car okay?" I said.

" Okay." She said and I held her hand in mine as we left for the store.