Depression/ anxiety one shots

Cotton candy communication ( tw sh talk ⚠️)

" Fuck, is this thing really stuck!" My friend Felicity yelled as we were on a Ferris wheel that had gotten us trapped at the very top.

" Calm down, they'll have it moving soon enough." I said in response.

" I just, I hate heights like this." She said, her breathing picking up pace as she became more anxious.

" I know. I'm surprised you even came on this with me." I said trying to make conversation that might help calm her.

" I just thought it'd be nice." She said vaguely.

"But you hate heights?" I asked confused.

" Fuck it I've got nothing but time and might as well have two panic attacks for the price of one." She said and took in a deep breath before speaking. " I like you Jeeya okay, and not like you're cool, which you are, but that's not the point, I like you like you, and it's okay if you don't feel that for me but I had to get it out."

I took her hand from her lap and interlocked our fingers. " I like you like you too Leese. A lot."

" Really?" She said. " Cause woah I don't know how my body is taking so many emotions all at once right now."

" I know, but it'll be okay. They'll get us down, just breathe." I said encouragingly.

" Shit I really can't breathe." She said panicking more and more.

I didn't know what to do so I just brought my face to hers and I kissed her, and as soon as I did she started to calm down.

We stared in each others eyes and it hit me what I'd just done.

" I'm sorry, I should've asked." I went to say but she cut me off by kissing me again.

" There, now we're even." She said giggling.

" Gotta keep it fair." I said nodding in agreement with a big smile on my face.

" So, what now? Would you like to go a date, like a real one?" She asked. " I don't know how to do this."

" Yeah I'd like that, but before we do, if you really want to do this I have to tell you something." I said getting anxious.

" I do, what is it? You know you can tell me anything." She asked.

" This is hard and if it changes your mind about me I'd get it, but I have an addiction to uh, to hurting myself, and I'm working on it, but it's so hard and if that's too much just tell me." I told her.

" Okay." She said simply.

" Okay?" I repeated.

" Yeah, okay, as in that doesn't change my mind at all. Of course it makes me worry about you, but if you tell me you're working on it I trust that. I'm here for whatever you may need, I'm in." She said and kissed me again.

" Really?" I said beginning to tear up.

" Yes really." She said nodding.

" I really want to get off this Ferris wheel so I can properly hug you." I said.

" Oh god me too." She said looking down and just as she spoke we began to move again.

We got off once we got back to the ground and I embraced her almost immediately.

" You are so beautiful you know that." I said as we pulled away and I tucked a piece of hair behind her ear.

" Mmm hmm, but I sure do love to hear you say it." She said in a lighthearted manner.

" Well good, cause I'm going to keep saying it." I said. " You want some cotton candy or something? I know that was stressful for you up there."

" Ooh yes please, can I ask something though?" She asked as we began to walk to the booth.

" Of course, ask away." I said.

" You'll tell me if or when you hurt yourself right?" She asked concerned.

" Oh absolutely, if you want to know I will tell you. Whatever I can do to make you more comfortable." I confirmed.

" Okay good, thank you. I appreciate that." She said. " And if more questions come to my head later can I ask them?"

" Yes you always can. I want this to be open and communicative, because I really do like you." I told her.

" That's so good to hear because I want that too, along with some blue cotton candy." She said with a smile as we approached the booth.

" Excuse me sir, two blue cotton candy spirals please." I ordered and smiled back at her as she reached out her hand to hold mine.