Depression/ anxiety one shots

The beach at night (tw sh, suicide attempt ⚠️)

My girlfriend Ava was supposed to meet me for dinner at the restaurant at 8:30. When 8:50 came I got nervous because she was never late.

I called her. She didn't pick up so I called again and again and she still didn't pick up. I remembered she had turned her location on recently, so I went and checked it.

She was at the beach. She never went to the beach at night, especially alone. I quickly left the restaurant and put in directions to her location.

I drove as fast I could and parked before running down to the beach calling her name.

" Ava!" "Ava!" I yelled over and over again but to no avail.

That's when I saw her, far down the beach slowly walking towards the water.

I ran to her as fast I could,  screaming her name some more. Once I got to her she was already waist deep in the ocean and I briefly shocked her out of her state when I picked her up and carried her up out of the water and set her down softly.

She looked at me with empty eyes and then down at her arms. They were bloody. She had hurt herself.

I noticed when she looked down, and instantly took off my jacket and held it on her arms to keep the pressure.

" I'll pay for the dry cleaning." She said stoically as her eyes met mine.

"Ava, darling. What is this? What happened?" I asked worriedly.

" Stop." She said. " Leave me be."

" No." I said and picked her up off the ground and carried her all the way back to my car.

She sat straight in my car and turned off the radio that had come on automatically.

I drove us home in silence and took her into the bathroom. I sat her on the toilet and cleaned her arms and wrapped them in bandages.

" Sweetheart. You gotta try and talk to me here. What's wrong love?" I asked.

She stood up in silence and almost robotically turned off the light and got into bed.

She didn't want me to touch her, let alone hold her, so I didn't. I just layed awake as long as I could, watching to make sure she was okay. I fell asleep eventually around 6 am, and around 8:30 am I felt her wrap her arm over me and she moved close.

" I owe you an explanation." She whispered.

" Okay." I said back. " Talk to me baby. Anything."

" I was on drugs, and before you get mad, I did that because I was gonna walk until the ocean until I couldn't anymore and I just wanted to feel calm. I am so sorry. I'll never stop being sorry." She said crying.

" Woah woah." I said sitting up. " You can't swim, so you were gonna?" I said stopping myself, I couldn't bear to say it.

" Yes." She said. " And the other stuff was just plan B. I am really really sorry."

" It's okay. I mean like you are not okay, that's clear, but I'm not upset and you don't have to say sorry my love." I said.

" Okay. I promise I'll never do that again though. You gotta believe me. Please don't tell anybody." She said as the tears flowed from her eyes.

" Hey, hey it's alright love. I'm not making you go to the hospital, but we should talk about you seeing someone. This was bad and I know you can see that too. I want you to feel okay, but I don't know how to do that for you by myself , so just think about it okay?" I said as I wiped her tears away with my thumbs.

"Okay." She said and winced as she layed on her arm, forgetting her wounds.

" Let me have a look at your arms love. I need to make sure you'll be okay because I don't feel like I was clear headed last night." I said.

She held her arms out for me as she sat up too. I unwrapped the bandages and got a clearer look at her wounds. I felt like sobbing on the spot but I couldn't do that to her, so I gently rubbed my fingers down the sides of her arms, where there were no cuts, to soothe her because she was starting to get teary again.

" Its alright love. I'm just gonna clean these again and wrap you back up. You'll heal baby. Just give it some time." I said.

She stayed silent as I cleaned her arms again.

" You can leave. I'd understand." She said abruptly as I was bandaging her.

I looked up and met her eyes. " Baby why would I ever want to do that. You think this would make me leave you?" I said sadly.

" I wouldn't blame you." She said. " This is a lot to handle, I know that."

" I'm here for all of it. Absolutely all of it my love, you hear? I'm not leaving you nor do I want to. I love you Ava, more than anything else on this planet. Matter of fact you are my planet, my home, my wonderful, beautiful, intelligent person. You're who I think of as I go to sleep and as I wake up, and I, just please never try that again, please." I rambled out.

She kissed me as she cried and I tucked her hair behind her ear as I touched my forehead to hers as we pulled apart from the kiss.

" I'm not leaving you either." She said and I let a tear of relief fall as she kissed me again.