Depression/ anxiety one shots

I wish I could trust you , but I just can't yet (slight tw 4 sh, overdose⚠️)

I had had the worst headache all day long , so I decided to call her .

" Hey ." I said when Charlie picked up the phone .

" Hey Liz, what's up?" Charlie said in a slightly concerned manner.

" Um, what are you up to right now ?" I asked , not wanting to ask her my actual question unless I knew she wasn't busy.

" I just finished my laundry and was gonna go grocery shopping, why ? Is something wrong ?" She asked.

" No , no , everything is fine, I just have , um , this headache right now and could really use some ibuprofen." I said.

The line was silent for a minute until Charlie spoke .

" Okay , I'll be on my way over to your place , just gimme 5, okay ." She said sadly.

Trigger warning- overdose.(non- graphic)'
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A couple months ago I overdosed and Charlie was the one who found me and had to call 911. After I got out of the hospital I stayed with her for a couple weeks and she decided it was best to rid my house of every and all medication or substance I could harm myself with. Now whenever I actually needed medicine, she would drive over and give it to me . I felt like a terrible burden to her and begged her to stop and put my stuff back but she refused time after time .

After like 15 minutes, I heard a knock on my door.

" Hey Liz." Charlie said pulling me into a hug. " You know how this has to go down right ?" She asked.

" Yeah I know." I said back and looked down ashamed.

Trigger Warning mention of self harm⚠️ (non- graphic)
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A few weeks ago I relapsed into self harm. It wasn't hospital bad , but it was pop a couple ibuprofen bad, so I called Charlie. When she got to my house she gave me the medication after asking why I needed it , my answer being that I sprained my ankle. Unfortunately for me she saw through that lie and found out about my relapse. Now she had to check to make sure I was clean before giving me the medication.

" Arms." She said sternly and I obeyed, pushing both of my sleeves up and she inspected both of my forearms and wrists.

I felt so bad having her have to do this . I felt like a terrible friend so I started to cry .

She noticed and looked at me before using her thumbs to gently wipe my tears away.

" Don't cry Liz. You aren't a burden to me , if I didn't want to be here for you , I wouldn't, okay . Good job not self harming here." She said pointing at my arms . "Okay , thighs please."

Once again, I didn't hesitate to obey her command and let my sweats slide down to my ankles. She knelt down and looked at my thighs, seeing only scars, some more healed than others . I noticed her smile a little bit she quickly got back into work mode.

" Last one Liz. Can you please lift your shirt so I can check your stomach ?" Charlie asked.

I did as she asked and she once again saw nothing new, only healing or healed scars .

She pulled me into a huge hug and said, " Liz you have no idea how proud I am of you ! You are doing so good!"

" Thank you." I said smiling from how happy I had made her.

" Alright so here's the medicine now." Charlie said taking two ibuprofen out of the bottle and giving it to me .

" Thank you ." I said and swallowed them down with some water and then opened my mouth to prove to her I did swallow them .

At first I would pretend to swallow them and then hide them in a bottle once she left to build my stash back up , but she caught onto this pretty quickly and now made me prove I wasn't doing that.

" Good job , thank you." Charlie said satisfied. " Okay well I have some food to buy , I'm cooking for Travis tonight." She said laughing.

I joined in because Charlie could not cook whatsoever, but her new boyfriend hadn't yet figured this out . We both joked about her skills and then I sent her on her way .

" Thanks for this." I said and she smiled nodding her head. " Don't make the firefighters come to your house again !" I shouted out the door after her and we both laughed .

She drove off , and I sank into the couch and put on Netflix . I was actually smiling and laughing . Not necessarily because the show was good , but because I kept thinking about what an amazing best friend I had .