Depression/ anxiety one shots

Fighting & Losing (tw sh, relationship toxicity ⚠️⚠️)

" You know what, fuck you Sage. I don't want to even hear it. I'm sick and tired of your little jealousy problem. Grow the fuck up and stop being so insecure, it's not a good look on you." My girlfriend Avi yelled at me.

"I'm sorry okay, but all I asked was if you were staying in a hotel or with your co-worker at their place because I don't know how comfortable I'd be with the second option because you two have history." I argued back, not quite at a yelling level though. I was sick at the time and my throat couldn't take it even if I tried to yell.

"No, you're saying you don't trust me! I'm staying with Rachelle okay, end of discussion. A week in a hotel is too damn expensive and you know that, and Rachelle's parents are literally gonna be there too because it's their summer house, so chill the fuck out. It's not like I'm going for fun, it's for work and you know how important that is to me. I'm tired of arguments like this. I'll text you when I get there." She said angrily and picked up her bag to head for the door.

" Avi, hey, I'm sorry. I didn't know her family was going to be there, I just thought it would be the two of you. Can I at least have a hug goodbye?" I asked and started to get teary-eyed knowing she was mad at me.

" I'll text you when I'm there." She repeated and I could tell she was holding back from yelling at me some more. She left and slammed the door on her way out without giving me a hug.

I was feeling pretty down but I also was feeling pretty sick, so I just decided it would be a good idea to take some nyquil and try to get some sleep.

I fell asleep around 4:30, Avi had left around 3:00 and so I had set an alarm for 7:00 because her drive was supposed to be around four hours and I wanted to make sure she got there safely.

My alarm went off and I checked my phone right away. No text, missed call, or anything of the sort graced my phone. I wasn't super worried because I assumed there would be traffic, so I just waited another thirty minutes or so until I couldn't wait any longer and had to check in.

I called her number and there was no answer. I waited another few minutes before calling again. I kept up the same routine until around 8:30 when she finally answered the call.

" Sage, what do you want? I just drove for like four and a half hours, I'm exhausted." Avi said, clearly annoyed with me.

"I was worried sick, you didn't text." I said mainly just relieved to hear her voice.

" Really, you're gonna try and make me the bad guy again? Wasn't once enough for today or do you feel the need to harp on my every fucking move!" She said getting angrier.

I didn't want another fight so I tried to calm her down. " You're right, I didn't mean to make you feel that way. I just care about you and wanted to make sure you were safe, that's all. I'm sorry your day has been so exhausting and I'm sorry for being a part of that. Just call me back when you're more rested and want to talk, okay? I love you."

" Okay." She said. "Night."

" Goodnight." I said back but she'd already hung up before I could get the full word out.

I took note of her not saying "I love you" back, and it hurt, but I tried to just chalk it up to her being in a bad mood from the drive and went back to sleep.

I slept in late the next morning, around 12:00pm, but when I woke up I noticed how much better I felt. My throat barely hurt, and I wasn't having any body aches so I figured that sleep must've done the trick.

I checked my phone and again, no messages from Avi. I knew she would be busy doing work things but on her previous work trips she'd always text a good-morning at the very least. I figured I would just text her then because she was clearly at a meeting or something, so I typed out a little message saying good afternoon and that I hoped her day went well.