Depression/ anxiety one shots

Thank you Mom ( sh tw ⚠️)

I was in the bathroom crying as I pressed the blade into my thigh when I heard the front door open.

" Hey sweetie , you home ? I took the rest of the day off , thought we could go catch a movie or something." I heard my mom say as I panicked trying to quickly clean everything up and put it away before she saw.

I threw everything in the drawer , wiped my leg off once with some toilet paper and then put my sweats back on.

" Oh there you are." My mom said smiling as I came into the living room. " So did you want to see a movie ?" She asked .

" Yeah sure , uh let me go change first." I said as I felt the blood start to seep through my thin sweats.

" Okay." She said and I went to turn away but she stopped me.

"Hun what's on your pants?" She asked , a worried expression forming on her face.

" Oh nothing mom, probably a stain or something." I said and went to walk away again but she gently grabbed my hand this time to stop me."

" Sweetheart , you know you can talk to me about anything right?" She said softly.

I knew she knew and that made me start crying again.

" Shhh, it's okay sweetie , I got you ." She said as she pulled me in and hugged me.

She let me sit and cry into her shirt for what felt like forever and I could tell she was holding back tears as well.

I sat up and she turned so we were facing each other.

" I love you honey . Is this something you're comfortable talking about right now or do you still need some more breathing time?" She said comfortingly rubbing my arm.

It's not like there was any good time, so I decided to just get it over with . I nodded not wanting to speak and slowly took off my sweats.

" Oh baby." My mom said sadly. " This really worries me and we are gonna have to talk about it but first can I patch you up?"

" Yeah." I said on the verge of tears again. She stood up and kissed me on my head.

" Be right back hunny." She said and she shortly came back with a first aid kid .

My leg had stopped bleeding but it was messy so she took out a wipe and cleaned it off. She then sprayed my leg with antiseptic and waved her hand over it to get it to dry .

" How's that so far , I'm not hurting you am I ?" She asked .

" No, but I know me doing this hurt you and I'm so sorry momma ." I said crying again.

She took my hands . " Sweetie you do not need to be sorry . Yes I'm sad you're hurting , but it's because I love you so much and I want you to be happy , but please don't ever feel like you are hurting me. It's the meanie thoughts that make you do this and won't leave you alone that hurts me, not you." She said and pulled me back for another hug .

" Now let's finish this up okay." She said and gently applied Neosporin over my leg before getting out gauze and putting it over. " Hold that for a sec hun." She told me , and I did as she said . She taped it down and so I stopped holding it .

" All done." She said kindly smiling. " Let me get you some clean sweats and we can talk." She said and did just that.

Once I had changed, I sat back down next to her on the couch.

" So what's been going on honey?" My mom asked .

" Um, I can't really put it on just one thing . It's just , I just do it when I'm really sad or when I'm really overwhelmed, or even when I'm just numb." I said embarrassed which my mom sensed .

" Honey you don't have to be embarrassed. I'm your mom, I would never judge you. I love you so much and I just want to help. How can I do that?" She asked .

" Um , I don't know , maybe I can like, try and talk to you when I want to do it instead of hiding it." I said unsure if that's what she meant.

" That sounds really good honey. Also do you think you could get me whatever you used so I can get rid of it ?" She asked .

I nodded and went to get my stash of things from the bathroom. I handed her my bag and she smiled hugging me.

" Thanks sweetie." She said and she tossed the contents of my bag in the trash. " How about we go to that movie now and we can talk about this more later ."

" Okay ." I said and went up to her hugging her again . " Thanks mom."

" For what ?" She said back confused.

" For being here when I need you." I said .

" You don't have to thank me for that honey. I'll always be here when you need me . I love you." She said .

" I love you too." I said and we went and saw a movie together and she bought me a bunch of the overpriced theater snacks .

When my mom found out about, she really did not care, and I figured that'd be the case for others as well so I wrote this one. This is how I wish my mom reacted and it felt very healing to write. As always be safe , love you guys 💕