Depression/ anxiety one shots

Roomate similarities tw sh, ed⚠️

" Teagean are you home?" I asked when I got back to our shared apartment. I was making sure she wasn't because I was about to do something I knew I shouldn't.

I failed a midterm in class earlier in the day and also got a call that I didn't get the internship I was trying so hard to get. I felt like being in control, so I went into my bathroom and closed the door, locking it before finding what I needed.

I took the blade and rolled up my sleeve. I cut across my arm a few times. I just needed a little relief, I didn't want to do too much because it didn't count as relapsing to me if I only did it a little.(1) I rolled my sleeve back down and went into the kitchen for a snack.

I took out the bag of grapes and ate a few of them before putting them away. I felt like I couldn't eat more because I'm on the swim team and all the other girls are just so perfect. I wanted to be perfect.(2)

It was then when I saw Teagans keys. They were on the counter, meaning she had to be home.

I went to her room and knocked on the door. No answer. I knocked again and then I called her. Still no answer.

I decided to get the master key cause her door was locked and it never is, so I was worried.

I opened the door and saw her in her bathroom lying unconscious on the floor. I ran to her and saw she was bleeding. Her thighs were covered in gashes and she needed stitches, immediately. I was getting a nursing degree and I knew she'd be better off if I stitched her now rather than called 911 because I had the experience from a lot of volunteer work at clinics , and our apartment was on the outskirts of the city so it'd take the paramedics over 10 minutes.

I checked her pulse and she was breathing so I ran and got my supplies as fast as I could.

" Hey Teagean. It's all gonna be okay. I'm gonna fix you up now okay?" I said, almost asking for permission but still knowing I wouldn't get any because she was passed out.

In the middle of me stitching her up she came to and began freaking out. I used my arm to pin her down best I could as I continued.

" I know, I know this is excruciating, but I need you to hang in there for me Teagean. Breathe." I said and finished the first cut. The worst one.

As I moved onto the next one she screamed. " Katie stop! Please I can't take this!" She began to cry.

I finished that one and stitched up the other 2. When I finished I let her up and wrapped my arms around her.

" Hey, hey it's okay, it's okay, I got you." I said as I held her and rubbed her back as she sobbed uncontrollably.

We stayed that way until her sobs subsided.

" How's the pain?" I asked softly as I looked into her glossy eyes.

" It's not so bad now, but still painful." She said.

" I'm so..." She went to say but I cut her off.

" No you don't need to apologize." I said and rolled up my sleeve. " I get it."

She looked at me sadly but nodded, grateful that I was understanding and not mean.

" I'm gonna need to finish cleaning you up now." I said and got antiseptic spray, Neosporin, and bandaids from her medicine cabinet.

As I was taking care of her I spoke. " You really scared me there for a minute ya know. I didn't know. I feel like I should've been able to see this."

" I won't do it again like this I swear." She said. " It was just a really bad week."

" Well now I know so talk to me about it instead, please Teagean, I'm here for you." I said.

" Only if you do the same." She said as I finished all her bandages. " Roll up your sleeve."

I stared shocked but did as she said. She took my arm and cleaned and bandaged me like I did for her.

" You gotta clean them after Katie. You know that." She said.

" Yeah I know. Thank you." I said as she finished and rolled my sleeve back down.

" Well since we're here, is there anything else I should know about?" I asked cautiously.

" Uh yeah. I guess I should tell you. I sort of, have bulimia. How about you? Since we're just dumping problems now."  She said trying to change the topic.

" I struggle with eating disorder stuff too. But in the restrict way." I said ashamed.

" Damn." She said. " We're like kinda the same person."

" I guess so." I said. " Well now that's it's out in the open we gotta be there for each other. We can get better Teagean! I know we can."

" You're right. Let's hold each other accountable. You watch me and I'll watch you." She said.

I nodded and she hugged me. We both began to cry.

" I'm just so happy you're okay." I said sincerely. " And I'd majorly hate to have to put out a Craigslist ad for a new roomie so please be safe if/when you feel the urge again. But preferably just come to me beforehand because I love you and I hate seeing you hurting."

" Thank you Katie, so much. I love you too, and I'll try, for you." She said.

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This was a therapeutic request, thank you. Below are the corresponding numbers to what I think are potentially bothersome pieces of this! As always be safe cause you are loved my friends.

1. (this is not true btw folks, please don't think that)
2. ( All bodies are perfect bodies! We are body positive here, but I also acknowledge what Ed's are and how they can make someone think!)