Depression/ anxiety one shots

Panic

Short one :

" Yeah so it's so crazy because they have like 10 siblings. Like I couldn't imagine." I said and expected my girlfriend L J to say something but she didn't.

" L J." I said and again, silence.

I gently put my hand on her thigh and said her name again. " L J, baby are you okay?"

She turned her head to me and shakily shook it side to side signaling she was not okay as a tear fell down her cheek.

I put my hand on her chest and felt what I assumed I would. Her heart was beating vigorously and then she started breathing heavy and I immediately knew it was a panic attack. I could tell she was about to throw up so I quickly ran and grabbed the trashcan from kitchen. I got it to her just in time because she leaned over and threw up while crying heavily.

" Alright sweet girl. I understand what's going on. I'm gonna do what we usually do okay. Come here." I said and slowly pulled her back to lay her head on my lap.

With one hand I held one of hers and I ran my fingers through her hair with my other hand.

" Squeeze my hand as hard as you can baby." I said and she did as I asked. It helps her to switch from mental pressure to physical pressure.

" Okay keep squeezing but now I want you to close your eyes and imagine that aren't here in this living room in this headspace. You're on a beach in Hawaii  laying back on a lounge chair as you reach over to the side table and grab a piña colada and take a big sip. You feel the cold deliciousness on your tongue. You're watching the waves smoothly crash along the shore as the sun seeps into your skin making you feel all warm and comfy. I'm by your side holding your hand like I am now and everything is calm. You have no trouble breathing and nothing inside you is churning and hurting you." I said and I felt her breathing slowly come back to normal.

" Alright baby. Open your eyes and sit up if you can but if you can't yet that's okay too." I told her and she opened her eyes and slowly sat up after a couple minutes.

She faced me and made eye contact before wrapping her arms around me and hugging me.

" Thank you." She said softly as her head rested on my shoulder and I rubbed her back.

" Of course. I love you and I'm here for you for whenever this happens, always." I said.

" I love you too." She said and she sat up.

" Here, drink some of this. You gotta replenish those fluids." I said and gave her my water bottle to drink from.

She passed the bottle back to me and I set it back on the coffee table.

" Do you wanna talk about it?" I asked.

" No, I think that would make it arise again." L J said and I nodded in understanding.

" Okay, you wanna go out and do something to get your mind off it ?" I asked.

" I kinda wanna just lay on you and watch a show. Is that okay?" She asked.

" Of course it is love. Let's just snuggle." I said and we layed down together.