Depression/ anxiety one shots

Hurt's disguise (tw sh, heavy cussing ⚠️)

I woke up from my nap to her yelling on the phone.

" Fuck you! You're a no good piece of shit, how dare you call yourself a mother!" She screamed.

I didn't want to interrupt. We had only begun dating a month or so prior and I was afraid to upset her further for her own sake, so I just stayed in my bed for the time being as I listened.

" No! Don't call me back! Matter of fact delete my fucking number you bitch! Good fucking riddance!" She shouted and hung up.

I then heard her throw her phone to the ground and that's when I decided to step in. I got up and started to go into the kitchen where she was. As I entered the room I was shocked to see her yelling and punching repeatedly into the wall.

" Audra?" I said softly.

She instantly stopped and turned around to face me in utter shock and embarrassment.

We stared at each other for a second before she bolted to the bathroom and slammed the door shut behind her before I could reach her.

" Audra baby, can you open the door, let's just talk." I said.

She ignored me and started to scream cry as I heard her rummaging through my drawers.

" Sweetheart what are you doing?" I asked trying to keep a cool composure in my voice.

The rummaging stopped and that's when I got scared, because so did the screaming and crying. It was silent.

" Audra please talk to me, you're worrying me." I said knocking on the door and rattling the doorknob.

She still kept silent and I thought fuck it, might as well break my door. My wall already had a hole in it. I used all my strength and I kicked it open to which I was met with the horrific view of my girlfriend cutting her stomach and arms.

She looked up at me, again a deer in headlights, and then almost instantaneously went back to what she was doing.

In that moment I didn't care if I'd get hurt I reached out and yanked what she was using from her hand. Luckily I didn't seem to get any cuts on my hands or anything and I tossed it in the trash as soon as I got it free from her.

" Go! Leave me alone!" She bellowed angrily.

"No baby. I won't do that." I said and squatted down next to where she was sitting.

She went to yell at me again but stopped when I put my hand on her thigh.

" It's okay Audra. You don't have to keep that wall up. I'm here." I said and she began sobbing.

I moved to sit next to her and wrapped my arms around her just holding her while she cried. I had taken inventory of her wounds and the bleeding was stopping on its own so I knew calming her down needed to be my first priority.

" Shh baby, I got you. You're safe now. Nothing can hurt you, no one can hurt you anymore." I said and rubbed her shoulder soothingly.

Eventually her tears became sniffles and I moved to face her again.

" Now, you know you gotta let me take care of you now alright? I said.

" Okay." She said.

" Let's get you off this floor so I can reach your stomach better." I said and stood up first before reaching out my hands to her to pull her up.

" Can you sit there for me?" I asked and pointed to the closed-lid toilet.

She nodded and sat down on top of it. I grabbed stuff out of the cabinet and layed it out on the counter for easy access.

" Okay arms up." I said. " Gotta take that shirt off you."

She reached her arms up and I gently pulled it over her head and tossed it into the shower to wash later as there was blood on it.

" Good, that's good baby. I'm just gonna wipe these down and then get you wrapped up so you don't get any infection or anything." I said.

I took out a saline cleansing wipe and wiped away all the blood from around the cuts and then wiped over them to clean them.

I put on some ointment and then a couple big bandages to cover all the areas she had harmed.

" Arms now." I said and so she held them out for me.

I repeated the process and once finished I helped her up from her seated position and wrapped her in a ginormous hug as I rubbed softly along her back.

When we pulled away I went to grab her hand and realized it was also bloody. I had forgotten about the wall.

" Oh let me clean your knuckles up really quick baby and then we can go talk in the living room okay?" I said to which she nodded, so I just wiped them down and applied ointment. The bandages I had would've just slipped off so I saw no use.

We went into the living room and sat next to each other on the couch.

"I'd understand if you didn't want to continue this relationship." She said as a tear fell from the corner of her eye.

" Audra. That's not what I want at all." I said.

" But I know I scared you. I'm sorry." She said admittedly.

" You did, but not how you think. I was scared for you, not of you. Do you want to talk about that phone call, is that what started things?" I asked.

"It was my mom. Someone I used to go to school with found my instagram and decided to snitch to my mother about us dating. She called me to yell at me and tell me what a disgrace I was to our family and then we just got into it so bad and I was so hurt and so angry and ugh, I'm so sorry." She said and started to cry again.

" It's alright, really, you don't have to apologize. I'm so sorry she did that and said that to you. You don't deserve that." I said as I grabbed her non-injured hand and held it in mine.

" But your wall. I'll pay to fix it I promise. Oh shit and my phone." She cried out.

" It's okay just breathe. The wall can be fixed and your phone can be replaced. We will get it figured out together. What I'm most concerned about is the damage to yourself. Is this something you've done before?" I questioned.

"Only a couple times before." She answered ashamed.

" Alright well that means we can stop this early, that's good." I said.

"But what if I can't?" She asked nervously.

" I'll be here to help and can I make a suggestion of something I think will help?" I asked.

" Yeah." She replied skeptically.

" I think you should start seeing a therapist, or at very least maybe an anger management group? Because I think that's where this comes from, right, overwhelming anger instead of overwhelming sadness?" I suggested.

" Yeah. I mean I'm not entirely sure but that sounds in the realm of possibility." She said. " I can try."

" That's great baby, and I'm here for you at every step of the way." I said and kissed her forehead.

There was a minute of silence before she spoke. " So you really aren't scared of me? Cause I promise you I would never ever take my anger out on you, only myself."

"I'm not scared of you one bit Audra. I'm your partner and I know you. I know you would never hurt me so trust me, I don't think of you that way at all." I said.

"I love you." She said and I looked back at her surprised because it was the first time she'd said it.

" I love you too." I said back with a smile.